See You Again

Chapter 44- Drink a beer

Chapter 44

We walked to our spot on stage and John was there. “Hey Rocket” “Hey pain in the ass.” I laughed. He was running around getting ready for everything with the show. He’s always running around that’s why I call him Rocket. I found Chase and gave him a hug. “Have fun tonight Rice Cake I know you’ll rock it.” “Thanks baby girl” He kissed my forehead. He was introduced and I joined Elijah and he kissed my cheek. Chase went on stage and he was amazing. We were dancing and singing to every song. He is so good. He was on stage for about an hour. When he got off of stage Gigi and I gave him a hug. “You were amazing Rice Cake.” I said “Yeah you are so good live.” Gigi added “Thanks girls.” He said giving us a big hug. “Gross you’re sweaty” We said and he let go gave us a kiss on the forehead and went to change. We went to join the FGL before they went on for their preshow ritual and prayer because it’s awesome. They got done and Gigi and I gave them a hug “Now don’t mess up and ruin the show Bros” I said laughing “You are such a sweet young lady Allison” T said “I know T. I get that all the time.” I gave him a hug. “I love ya have a kick ass show.” “Thanks sweetheart.” He gave me a hug.  I gave BK a hug “BK I still secretly hope you fall on your face but Have a bad ass show.” Everyone laughed. “Oh I love ya soo much. You are the little sister I always wanted.” He squeezed really tight. “I love ya too BK” We laughed because we do love each other we just love to pick on each other and fight. It’s serious love/hate relationship. They went on stage so we went back to our spot. They had about an hour like Chase and we were all singing and dancing the whole time. It’s how our family is we know how to have a good time. The guys are amazing out there I never knew I figured they would be but I was blown away. Gigi and I were dancing with Jake and Elijah and I guess it got a little too dirty for the adults liking because I looked over and there were a whole lot of disapproving faces. “Can you keep that to a minimum?” My dad yelled. “WHAT?” I said I could hear him but he was being lame. He repeated himself. I said what again but then he was getting mad so he walked over “Don’t play games with me young lady” I just laughed and gave him a hug “Sorry daddy.” He walked back over I started dancing with Gigi as the boys were singing Dayum baby. I turned around and Elijah was singing he’s so cute. I smiled at him and kept dancing with Gigi. When the song was over I gave him a short passionate kiss. “Your voice is amazing. I swear I melt every time I hear it.” I whispered in his ear. He smiled and kissed me. “Well everything about you makes me melt.” He said he is just so sweet. I kissed him again the guys were closing with Cruise so they were preparing to do their beer smash. To me it’s cool but damn who wants to wear beer for the rest of the show. They came off sweating and we met them. “Ok you two were amazing I know we hate to admit it but you we’re kinda bad ass.”  They laughed “Thanks Asshole” BK said Gigi and I started laughing “BK did you just call my girls Assholes” “Yeah Luke they are assholes” “Just asking. I’m sure they deserved it.” He laughed “Gee thanks poppa bear.” We all laughed.

They were changing over the stage for daddy so we were hanging. “Daddy you ever get nervous.” “Yeah I still get nervous every time I perform. If you don’t you’re a freak of nature.” He laughed and I laughed too. “I just know I can’t let my fans down and I love what I do so it’s fun to me which helps me push the nerves down deep.” Daddy had a pretty long set it was 2 hours but about a half hour of that would be him Chase and FGL BSing doing other songs by other artist. I’m excited for that because I love hearing them do like pop, hip hop and R & B song. Daddy was about to go on so we gave him a big hug. “I love you daddy. I know you’ll do amazing. I’m really excited to see you perform.” I said smiling. “I love you too little bear. I’m glad to have an amazing daughter like you. I know I don’t say it a lot but I am so happy to have you, Madison and you too Gianna here with me.”  He gave us both a hug. “Thanks poppa bear I’m glad to see you perform again and to be here with you guys.” Gianna said as they called dad to stage “Love ya girls” “Love ya too” We gave him another hug and went back. I was so excited to see my dad perform for the first time.  Usually by now Bo and Maddie are in bed but momma let them watch the show. They have these cool headphones that quiet the sound but allow them to hear the concert clear. I want those because I’m practically deaf when I leave the concert. Anyway daddy was on stage I swear he is like perfect up there. I mean even if I wasn’t his daughter he would be my favorite and this night of the tour would be my favorite.  He was rocking it and shaking it and singing his heart out. He got to the part where the guys came back out and they sang a couple songs and T got to rap and they were just messing around it was hilarious. Then they left the stage and daddy continued. He got to the part where he sings drink a beer and he started and by the end I was hysterical crying in Elijah’s arms. My mom came over “Elijah take her down where her dad can’t see her or he’ll worry and come over here.” Elijah did as she asked. I just really haven’t thought about my mom but this song makes me think about her and daddy singing it with so much emotion and pain just made me break down. Elijah sat down in a chair where we could still see daddy on the screen and sat me in his lap and held me tight. “Hey baby girl what is it.” By this time I was hysterical. I tried to speak. “I-i- miiisss her” I said continued to cry into his chest. “I know you do baby. You just keep it buried down. You never even talk about her. It’s alright to miss her. It’s alright to hurt and it’s alright to cry because you haven’t really done that.” He kissed my forehead and just held me and rubbed my back. He’s right I haven’t really cried or mourned my mom. He started to sing God gave me you softly. I could feel myself calming down he has that effect on me. “Thank you Elijah.” “I’m always gonna be here for you baby.” “I know I’m sorry I broke down.” “Don’t you dare apologize. You have every right break down. You lost your mom Allison and you still haven’t actually dealt with all that you lost. I know you have gained a lot but you lost a lot too.”  I kissed him with all the passion I had in my body. “I love you more than life itself Elijah Michael” “I love you more than anything in this world Allison Marie.” I kissed him again. “We should get back before daddy finishes.” He agreed. On the way back I fixed my makeup a little but my eyes were puffy and my makeup was shot. I took a picture and posted it on Instagram and Twitter. [The aftermath of listening to my poppa bear @LukeBryan sing drink a bear for the first time. I love my family but I miss my mom AnnMarie #RIPMom #gonebutnotforgotten] We made it back in time to watch my dad end the show with That’s my kind of night. “You alright sweetie” “Yeah momma I just miss my mom. I’m sorry” “Why are you sorry?” “I’m sorry I broke down and I don’t want you to think I don’t think of you as my mom cause I miss her.” She pulled me into a hug “Allison She is your mother; she brought you into this world. She raised you and you lost her in. You have every right to miss her and love her. She will always be your mother. I love you Allie and I am your momma now and I love you as if you are my own nothing will change that.” She hugged me tighter and I started to tear up again and she kissed my cheek. “I love you momma.” “I love you too sweetie.” She didn’t let go but I heard my dad talking to Elijah and I’m sure he was asking why I was crying because he hadn’t checked his phone. I was still crying a little in my mom’s arms but I was pulled away. My dad was hugging me. “Daddy you’re all sweaty.” I said “I’m sorry little bear are you ok?” “I’m sure I will be daddy. I just miss my mom. Then you sang Drink a beer and I kinda broke down but I’m gonna be fine.” “Well let’s head back to the bus.” “Ok. Can Elijah and Jake come watch movies with us?” “Ugh Allie” Gigi and I gave him the pouty face. “Fine. No funny business.” “Dad really? You’re crazy” We laughed. The guys went to change and so did we. Gigi and I put on a pair of short Nike Shorts and tank tops. The boys had on basketball shorts and cutoffs. “Allie” “Yeah Maddie Monster.” I said picking her up. “You ok” “Yes I’m fine sweet girl.” “Can you put me to sleep?” “Of course I will.” I walked her back to her bunk and laid her down. I sang to her and before the course she was out. I kissed her and Bo was climbing into bed. “Good night little dude I love you.” “I love you too sissy” I gave him a kiss and he fell asleep almost instantly. I walked out and Gigi had popped popcorn and got the snacks mom, dad, and Mike were in their pj’s I don’ mind hanging with them their cool sometimes. “The little ones are off to dream land.” I said walking to get a bottle of water. There was a knock on the bus door so I answered it. I internally rolled my eyes and sighed but smiled. “Hey Taylor” She rolled her eyes “Where’s Michael?” “Come in were all about to watch a movie and enter a sugar coma.” “No I just want you to get Michael.” I hate her attitude. She is a bitch and she treat Mike like shit but whatever I always try to hook him up with girls but it don’t work he would never cheat on her cause he’s a good guy. “Anyone ever tell you that your attitude sucks?” “No one asked you little girl. Just get my boyfriend.” “Hey creeper the thing at the door is for you.” “What?” He said coming to the door.  “Ugh you can do so much better creeper” I whispered to him He looked at me confused.He went to the door and I could hear her yelling at him. “Who was at the door?” My dad asked “Ugh Taylor. Her attitude sucks I tried to be nice to her but she’s truly a Biatch.” “Allison” My mom said “No hunny she really is” my dad said making us all laugh. “SO what are we watching?” “We have decided on Transformers” “Ok” “But your mom and I are gonna go to bed cause I’m exhausted and she just ate herself to a sugar coma. No funny business.” “Yes sir” We all said. We turned on the movie and pulled out the big couch to a bed. Elijah and Jake were on the outside and Gigi and I were on the inside. We took a picture and posted it [Late night Movies and Cuddles with my favorites] We posted it on our Daze of Tomorrow pages. [Movie Night Transformer marathon #tourlife #love #friendship] We got situated and were watching to the movies when Mike came back in. “Hey creeper” “Hey brat” “Where ya going?” “Gonna stay in a hotel?” “Why?” He just looked at me I laughed “Whatever remember we got shit to do tomorrow” “Yes ma’am” “Dude the boss has spoken” Jake said “Yeah I know she’s a pain in the ass.” Mike responded “Shut up you too. And Creeper you better leave before you get in trouble.” He rolled his eyes. “See ya tomorrow guys.” We all said bye. We watched all three of the transformers and knocked out. I went to sleep cuddling with Elijah which was amazing. I’m glad momma and daddy let them stay maybe we can have more nights like this because I slept so well.