Kpop Soloist

Panic Attack

(AN: I've never had a panic attack so I don't know the symptoms or how it feels to have one so it might not be accurate.)

I was sitting in the dressing room waiting for the girls to come back. They are performing their subunit song. I know NCT are performing today as I saw Jaehyun. I was alone in the room as the staff had left to go get or do something. Scrolling through my phone I get this really terrible feeling. I felt like I couldn't breath looking to my hands I can see that they are shaking. My heart was racing for no reasons. I felt things where closing in around me. Pulling out my phone I debate whether or not to message Jaehyun and decide against it. He's probably doing something. Shakily I put my phone away. I can get through my panic attack alone. I begin to feel like I was underwater. I don't know how long I sat there trying to get through it. I jump when hands grab mine

"Jagiya"

I couldn't hear or recognise who was talking to me. The hands move to take my face between them. There was this fog over my eyes.

"Jagiya"

Blinking my eyes I see the worried face of Jaehyun in front of me. There wasn't anyone else in the room.

"Hey it's alright"

I collapse against Jaehyun. I don't know when I started crying

"It's ok"

One of his hands rubbed up and down my back.

"It's ok I'm here"

His other hand is in my hair.

"Why didn't you call me?"

I mumbled my answer into his chest

"Jagiya?"
"It came out of nowhere"
"This hasn't happened in years"

I nod against his chest

"Luckily I came to check on you"
"Jaehyun I'm tired."
"I'd say you are, these always drain you"

He moves us so he's sitting on the couch I was kept close.

"Why aren't you with your group?"
"We where having lunch when I got this feeling to check on you considering you weren't answering your phone."
"I never answer my phone"

I feel him press a kiss to my temple.

"Have you eaten?"
"No"
"Let's go eat"

I can only watch as he gets up. I let him pull me up but I felt a little dizzy.

"Lets take it slow"
"Are you calling me slow?"
"Yes"
"Wow rude"
"Only to you"

Once I'm steady on my feet I glare at him

"You're buying me food cause of that comment."
"Anything for my princess"
"I'm not a princess"
"Right you're a queen"

I push him weakly.

"You didn't comment on me calling you mine."
"We're dating its fine for you to call me that"

His arm wraps around my waist as we walk

"Jagiya?"
"Yeah"
"Next time you feel the begin of a panic attack call me"
"What happens if you aren't near?"
"I'll talk you out of it, I don't like finding you in the middle of one."
"How long did it take to talk me out of it?"
"Nearly 10 minutes but you where probably having it for around 15 minutes when I found you."
"Oh"