SAWYER
I try my best to hold it together. It's been over a day, and I'm terrified to break it to everyone, and terrified to accept it. Everyone is depending on me to figure it all out.
America and I can still see each other. She's not saying anything... but she's here. And I'm in her mind too. My powers are so weak by now... and my veins are barely seen white. The Chair is really messing up my powers, and so is my brain.
It's like my body is attacking itself.
Today is the day we prepare to save Lillette. We know we'll give her a few options... and any of her choices can go either way. She may have been a total ass the first time I met her, but she's now one of the closest friends I'll have.
Lim and Laura have taken Lillette to the Chairs room, when Tyler and I are getting ready to go down to see them getting a few of the supplies ready.
As I'm sorting the surgical supplies, I realize I've started to hear quiet noises from the bathroom... It sounds like... crying... I'm pretty sure Tyler is in there. Confused, I walk over to the bathroom door, slowly creaking it open. I see Tyler clutching the edge of the sink, staring in the mirror letting out shaky breaths.
I sigh, looking at him sympathetically. Tears drip from his eyes, dropping into the sink as he lets out a sudden choke.
I think he's having an anxiety attack.
"Tyler..." I say, in a high soothing voice. He looks over at me, pursing his lips, not trying to hide any of his emotion at all. I walk over to him, putting my hand on his shoulder. "Hey, sit down, sit down."
He sits down at the edge of the bathtub. I grab one of the plastic Dixie cups from the wall, fill it up with water, and hand it to him. I soothe my hands up and down his shoulder as he drinks from the cup, "There you go, just breathe..."
A few minutes pass until he can calm down just the slightest bit, wiping his eyes.
"I... uh... I didn't bring my meds..." he says, sniffing after the sentence.
"Okay..." I say. "We'll figure that out..."
He stares off, his mind looking blank, yet full of so much emotion. He's worried about Lillette. I know he is.
"Ty, look at me," I say. He lets out an exhale, and turns to me. "We're going to save Lillette. Okay? We're going to save Lillette."
He turns his head away, staring forward. As he stares off, he starts shaking his head little by little. He holds his fingers up to his lips, more tears forming in his eyes. He lets out another exhale, turning to me, "I hesitated Sawyer...!"
I sigh, "Ty, please..."
"I hesitated..." he mutters, his voice shaking.
"Tyler, come on. Don't beat yourself up for this," I say. He quickly wipes his eyes with the back of his hand, covering them with his palm. "Emmet was the one who shot Lillette. Not you. Period."
"I saw him raising the gun. I knew he was going to shoot when Lillette was in front of me. I let her get shot," he mutters to himself, hearing the anger in his voice. He sniffles as I stare at him sighing. "I can still smell the blood on my hands... I can see it in my finger nails. I was washing the blood off absolutely anguished, never been so mad at myself."
"America orchestrated the attack at the party," I recall. "Children of Freemind captured you and Lillette. Emmet was the one who had the gun. He is the one who got her shot. Not you. Do you hear me?"
He says nothing for a long number of seconds, blinking away tears. It's almost like just by looking at his face he doesn't wanna believe my words.
"I don't think I'd ever be able to move on if she dies," he says. Those words just got real for me. "She's my friend, she's always been my friend. I've put up with her for eight months, rejecting her back of forth because she's in love with me, and Jesus it's annoying... But I feel like... some sort of Lord thought she needed Karma, and just... shot her in the abdomen to show... I'd hesitate and not take a bullet for her. It sounds stupid... but I'm worried it is."
"I don't want you to think that way..." I say. He sighs, raising his eyebrows. He lets out a shuddering breath, seeing another line of tears prick up in his eyes.
"What if she dies?" he shudders, turning to me in a calm, panicked expression.
"She won't." I say, too scared to hear those words out loud.
"What if she does though?" he shudders. I put my hand on his shoulder.
"Ty..." I say, raising my eyebrows trying to calm him down.
"What if she dies?!" he shudders, raising his voice to a loud whisper.
"She's not gonna die..." I assure, trying to soothe him the best I can.
"But I'm telling you, Sawyer," he begins, a tear falling from each of his wide eyes. He shakes his head as he says it. "What if it happens...?"
I stare at him, seeing the fear and heartbreaking expression in his eyes. I put my other hand on his left shoulder, looking directly at him. He looks at me, still looking ashamed of himself. I will not let him be.
"If..." I begin, raising my eyebrows. He stares at me, getting more and more expressionless. I absolutely hate to say a sentence like this aloud about my friend... but I'll say it for him "If... she doesn't make it... We'll get through this together. As a team. You'll have Jamie, you'll have me. But I am telling you, Tyler. Don't you... dare... blame yourself for this. And if there is a Lord, he'd forgive you. This wasn't Karma, this is a horrible, dangerous thing that happened to a girl trying to do better. You'd have people to take the burden off you, Jamie wouldn't even dare to let you live like that. Being the amazing guy he is, he'd take all his time and day to take care of you. I know that for a fact because... he did the same for me. And I wish he was here for this right now, but for now, hear my words."
He stares at me, his eyes getting less teary.
"Do not put this all on you. I know hearing Jamie's words would be better for you, but this is all I can give you right now. I'll say the things he'd say. And I don't care if that's not enough for you, but listen to me," I say. He listens closely. "Do not put this all on you. You hear me? Don't do that. I mean it."
He sits there, turning away from me, staring off. His knee bounces as a few more seconds pass, until he turns to me.
"Let's just go be there for her..." he mutters. I nod, smiling. I rub his shoulder, getting up from the bathroom. He follows after me, me giving him a smile.
Tyler seriously has such a big heart, and incredibly selfless when it comes to so many things. I just hope he can live through whatever happens to Lillette. I don't know if I can... after finding out what killed my mother... I'm the one that has to hold it together here...
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