I guess it was all Dan's fault to begin with. Let me explain.
Ever heard of friends with benefits? Or...what about just benefits? Not friends, more of aquatences.
That's how Dan started off as with Phil. I mean, they had known eachother since infants so you would expect the bond to be much bigger. On Dan's side, it was.
On Dan' s side, his heart would skip a beat everytime the other would merely look his way.
On Dan's side, his body ached at night all alone after he had left.
On Dan's side, he knew he was used.
Because Dan loved him.
But on Dan's side, he liked to pretend, just for a little while, that the other loved him too.
And thus began the utter heartbreak.
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Let me introduce myself. My name is Pj Liguori, your narrator for this pretty little story turned bad.
My role being Dan and the other known as Phil' s close friend.
Well...not just close friend. With Phil, i'm his ex lover.
Before you fangirls attack me in an epitemy or rage and heartfelt desire that your oh so little hearts cannot concur - no thats not a youthimism - let me first explain.
Put yourself in my shoes first before we begin.
Phil and I had been together since year 10, we had slight feelings and from then on this relationship blossomed into something so childlike yet so....mature.
I couldn't help but fall for somebody else a few years later. And it wasn't just a somebody, it was someone that I had strong feelings for previously. Whem Chris returned from boarding school how was I to help falling back in love with him.
And I knew I couldn't bother Phil with my selfish two way choices. So in result, I explained this all to him and we broke up nicely. Still close friends however, I no longer saw him in a romantic way.
But, the feelings were not mutual.
See I didn't mean for all of this to happen! How was I to know that Phil would result in using Dan....
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Dan always had a smile on his face. Contrasting to his black clothes and dark eye makeup or earings. He was a sweet guy.
You couldn't really tell that he was being torn apart bit by bit at first glance.
At first glance, one might think he lived a happy life. But no.
Every Friday, he would change routes to a 15 minute location where a abandoned destination meant no followers. And then he would arrive at Phil' s house, where Phil would have sex with him. But not love sex. Lust sex. Want sex. Need sex. Using him.
But the worst thing was, the need or want was not for Dan, it was for his first love that he didn't get over...Pj....well me, your narrator.
How was I to know all this though?! They ever talked about it and I didn't even know they knew eachother.
But anyhow, on with the story. I did say it was Dan's fault, but then again he couldn't help it. If someone you lusted over so much as well as loved offered sex would you not take it? What if the love was so extreme that you said yes to pretending you were someone else? To please them?
At first Phil offered to pay him. He chose Dan because of his...,body structure I suppose? But Dan consistently said no.
Truthfully, if Dan got money of this, he would feel like a prostitute, and he just wanted for a second for it to feel real.
