Dan thought he was dead.
Dan wanted to be dead.
But he wasn't.
He was alive.
Dan's eyes fluttered open and whimpered from the brightness of the room before closing them again and whincing.
He also realized somebody was holding his hand judging from the warmness around it.
Who could it be?
Curiousness got the better of Dan as he peeked his eyes open. There was somebody slouched down besides him, their head resting on the bed face first most likely out of exhaustion. A mop of black hair.
Dan frowned and took his hand away from Phil's as the boy looked up and rubbed his red puffy eyes.
Dan just stared with hatred. "G-Go away. Why am I even alive? Someone kill me, you kill me already, and while you're at it, kill yourself because I hate you." He spat angrily.
Phil's mouth opened slightly. "W-What? D-Dan, why?!"
Dan rolled his eyes. "There was a reason I wanted to be dead you cunt, because of you."
Phil's lips started to quiver. "W-What did I-I do?"
"Phil, everything you have done in the last couple of months have hurt me." Dan said quietly, biting his lip.
"W-What?"
"Remember when I confessed?! You looked at me like I was a fucking monster! D-DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH COURAGE IT TAKES TO CONFESS TO YOUR BEST FRIEND THAT YOU'RE HELPLESSLY IN LOVE WITH THEM?!....D-Do you know...h-how much it hurts w-when they reject you, how u-utterly vunerable you f-feel. The monsters in my head have come back Phil, BUT YOU DIDN'T GIVE A SHIT DID YOU? I-I CAN'T FIGHT IT ANYMORE, I-IT'S KILLING ME INSIDE, THAT'S WHY I TRIED TO KILLED MYSELF, TO G-GET THEM TO GO A-AWAY!" Dan ended up yelling at Phil's face as tears streamed down his cheeks.
"T-The monsters are back?" Phil asked quietly.
"Y-Yes Phil, t-the fucking monsters are b-back."
"D-Dan? C-Could you do one thing for me?"
Dan bit his lip and raised his eyebrow questioningly.
"L-Let me try to become y-your best friend again and h-help you fight through t-the monsters?
Dan hastily wiped his eyes, holding his arms out for a hug. "O-Only if you hug me, but theres no way in h-hell i'm forgiving you, you piece of shit." Dan growled, needing some sort of comfort.
Phil smiled softly as he nodded and wrapped his arms around Dan's waist and pulled him close.
"I'm sorry Dan.."
"..."
~~A few months later~~
When months had passed from the day of the incident, Dan had now moved back in properly with Phil and catered to his every need in hoped he will forgive him someday, which he still hasn't said to.
Phil's girlfriend Nicole is now out of the picture since she was recently caught making out with some random guy a few weeks before Valentines day.
Naturally, it broke Phil's heart and Dan tried his best to comfort him, even though he shouldn't really.
But it was fair to say that Dan still had feelings for Phil. Deep feelings.
Feelings that would cause him to blush everytime their hands accidently met and look down nervously whenever their eyes met.
Phil was helping Dan through the monsters. He was almost three months clean and Phil was extremly proud of him for that which made Dan feel even happier.
The last time the monsters had gave Dan a bad thought was almost two months ago.
Phil on the other hand, had grown a small crush on Dan. A very secret crush that grew quite large after weeks had passed.
It was Valentines Day and their friend Jason was having a party to celebrate. Dan was talking to Troye and Tyler about what a cute couple they made when some loud shouting could be heard from Phil and everyone whom he was standing with.
Pj and Chris could be seen smirking as they all pushed Phil rather harshly forward.
Phil swallowed nervously, a thin red rose in his hands that were shaking tremendously.
Dan just looked confused, tilting.his head.
Phil shuffled forward, staring intensly at his feet until he unwillingly raised his head prior to the shouts of requests from the group behind him.
Phil looked as if he was about to burst into a tamato due to how red his cheeks were.
Dan chuckled softly and smiled sweelty at Phil.
Phil took a deep breath making Dan giggle at how cute he was.
"D-Dan, I uh l-like you and um, y-yeah d-do you wanna b-be my Valentines p-please?" He stuttered out, chewing on his lip.
Dan didn't answer straight away and just watched as his heart skipped way too fast for just a friend.
"Y-You don't have to or-or anything I m-mean it would b-be nice if y-yes I j-just i'm s-sorry." Phil finished nervously, looking up at Dan shyly as he handed him the rose.
Dan awed silently and smiled. "Yes."
"Yes?'
"Yes!"
Phil's jaw dropped as his mouth split into a ginormous grin. "T-Thanks." He said quickly, running off to where the group behind him was who were now cheering and wolf-whistling.
Dan giggled and turned to Troye and Tyler who were smirking at him.
"That was very cute." Tyler grinned.
"Yeah, why don't you treat me likee that?" Troye asked, turning to Tyler.
Tyler shrugged and kissed Troye's cheek. "Just wait for tonight my little nugget."He smirked as Troye blushed and smiled shyly.
Dam smiled at the cute couple and turned around, deciding to walk to Phil's group.
They all saw him approaching and stepped backwards except for Jason and Phil. Jason looked confused and also stepped back hurriedly leaving Phil who was still blushing madly.
Dan looked up at him and cupped his cheeks. "You're cute." He said quietly, quickly kissing Phil's lips. "And I forgive you for the incident."
Phil's eyes widened in amazement as he quickly pecked Dan's lips back. "T-Thank you.'
