A/N:
Songfic based off of Demons by Imagine Dragon.
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When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold
Phil Lester always liked to pay close attention to people. He was always fascinated by how we are all percieved as the same majority to someone of a higher heirachy but really, we are all small minorities, each individually one of a kind.
He liked to start on the populars. The ones who seemed so perfect, so inhumane and flawless. And yet, they suprisingly had problems too.
Like how the guy who calls other people faggots is struggling with his homosexual tendencies his family has taught him to despise.
When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood’s run stale
Phil knows it couls be a lot worse for him. The other popular person was the super slutty girl.
This one happened to suffer a tramuatic event to turn her into a school slut.
As far as Phil knew, the girl was a clean virgin up until a guy had played her. Badly.
Ever since then, she had lost her respect for guys because of her boyfriend, and for girls because of the one her boyfriend cheated on her with. Which eventually made her lose respect for herself.
I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There’s nowhere we can hide
Phil had it bad too. But some had it worse. Another popular student was the one who was alwayz shouting back to the teachers and starting fights.
Phil knew that that boys family had been a real problem for him. His dad was in the army and every so often when he would visit, he would expect his son to be the generic masculine man, therefore was shunned if not.
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
Phil liked to wonder how in many people's eyes, these humans were seen as flawless. Yet they look at themselves and most see the opposite.
Phil's POV
There was also Dan Howell. He suffered from dyslexia, so he would blurt out silly things to make people pay attention to that side of him. He was incredibly self-conscious and despised sympathy.
He's my best friend.
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
I'm the one that helps him. I force sympathy into him because he needs it once in a while. His learning affects his mental state, causing him to have depressive stages.
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
He's also my soul-mate. I hold him close, whispering only soothing things trying to warm up that big heart that is slowky being defeated by the cold thoughts whom I constantly try to help him battle.
At the curtain’s call
It's the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl
I'm not perfect either.
So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you made
I pretend I am, I call everyone out and observe their flaws and yef mine are one of the biggest of all.
Don't wanna let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don't wanna hide the truth
We're all mad in this world, all struggling through our own battles and mine is anger. Control. And jealousy.
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
But everyone has their own little worlds too. Sometimes I like to join others.
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Not many people have joined mine however. That's because too many demoms are strong enough to inhabit the space and it's fustrating so they give up and leave, going back into their own world.
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
But Dan came into my world. He has faced my demons and sometimes lost but it had ended up with me crying for the next few days apologizing constantly and taking care of him for the slap I had given him out of anger caused by the demons.
They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go
I joined his world so I fight his demons. We stay balanced but sometimes I lose too and end up getting yelled at, before being used as a shoulder to cry on as he constantly apologizes after.
Your eyes, they shine so bright
I wanna save that light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how
I help Dan because he doesn't deserve his demons. All people don't.
I wish I could take Dan's demons and let them live in my world so that they would leave his.
I would do so much for Dan if that meant that he could be happy.
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
We all have our demons and have to help, but many don't. The hardest thing is to rip yourself out of your own world to jump into someone elses and help fight them, seeing where they hide and creep.
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
But its worth it when you realize you've stopped their demons from pushing them out of their world.
A/N:
Very angsty, kinda confusing, unrelated to the song and not much phan im so sorry :o
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