A/n:⚠if you ever feel depressed, please dont read this. It might trigger some people that are depressed. This story contains suicide and self harm⚠
Y/n's p.o.v.
Me and alvaro are dating for 8 months but his fans never accepted our relationship. They're all hating me. They never supported us and in that 8 months of dating, hate is all I'm getting.
'Fuck off!'
'What did he even see at you?'
'Did you hypnotize him to fell inlove with you'
'Ugly pig'
'Shit face'
Thats just some of their hate comments about me. Im not famous like alvaro or pretty as his ex girlfriends.
"don't listen to them babe... that's not true. All of them."
I just let a fake reassuring smile. I act like Im not affected or hurt at their words but inside, im hurt... so much because they are all right. Im ugly. Im fat. Nobody in my life made me happy as Alvaro did.
'I love you.'
'Youre so pretty oh my god'
'Just kiss me princess'
Those are some words that Alvaro said to me. They kinda made me happy. I kinda believed those words but because of those hate, im not. Im depressed inside especially when all his fans are shipping him with all those pretty girls even tho they know we are dating.
Im sitting in the bathroom floor right now crying... alone. Alvaro did not come home yet. I feel so alone without him. I just recently posted a picture at instagtam and tiktok. His fans and my haters blowed all of them with hate comments. I expected this already and im not new to it.
But right now, Im tired. Im tired of listening with those shits.
Im in the middle of crying when suddenly, my phone rang. Someone's calling me. I pulled out my phone from my pocket and saw that it's alvaro. I answered it and decided to act happy.
"Alvaroooo!" "y/nnnnn!I miss you already."He said in a baby voice. I giggle while tears pouring down my cheeks. "When will come home?""Soon babe. Just a little more wait yeah?"
Then I hear someone call him.
"we need to go babe. Bye. Love you."
"i love y-"
I didn't even finished what will I said. He hang up. I looked at my lock screen and saw my picture with alvaro. Started to sob. It's hard to act happy even tho you are not.
I stood up and stared at my self. My ugly self in the mirror then something caught my eyes. It's some pills. I smiled thinking what will I do with them. I picked one bottle with my trembling hand.
I opened it and put like 10 pieces in my hand. My other hand typed in my phone.
Y/nnnn♡
Hey babe.I love you with all my heart. I dont want to leave you but your fans and my haters wnated me to. Im sorry for every shits I gave to you. Bye♡
I already sended it and my hand fell out of my hand. I looked at the pills at my hand and the others scattered at the sink. I took all of the pills and drank some water. I stood there looking how messed up I was.
Then my surrondings started to spin and I felt dizzy. I fell to the floor and heard a slam of a door. My mouth started to bubble and everything went black.
Alvaro's p.o.v
Im at a tour but in our place. I really miss y/n right now. It's kinda late already and I wanted to go home but they still need me in here so I cant. While sitting at my seat while at break, I saw one post of y/n on instagram. A lot of bashers is sending hate to her.
Im kinda feel bad for y/n and Im worried about her. I called her and she answered immediately. She sounded happy and fine tho. I didnt ask about the hate comments. Mattia called me and said that we need to go. Y/n is saying something when I already hang up.
The tour went smoothly but at the middle of it, my phone vibrated and I checked who texted me. I opened it and its y/n. I read it because im curios that there might a problem. I read her message and my heart broke. Shes not fine.
I can feel that she will do some bad thing so I grabbed the mic
"Im so sorry but I need to go now."
The let go of the mic and it fell to the ground. I drove to the house really quick. I got there and ran to the room we shared. I slammed the door behind me. I hear a thud and ran quickly. I got into the bedroom and she's not there. I opened the bathroom door and I saw her at the floor shaking with some bubbles in her mouth.
"oh god..."
I muttered while i picked her up and ran to the car outside. She stopped shaking and I got more worried.
I drove really really fast to the hospital. After 15 minutes we got there. I carried her to the emergency room. They gave her attention and they looked problematic. They made me wait at the waiting room. I can't stop thinking of what she look like at the bathroom. She looked bad.
I started to cry because of that thoughts. She can't leave me. I cant live without her.
One of the doctors came out of the room slowly. He looked sad and My heart stared to beat fast.
"She didn't make it..."
There's more of what he said but when I hear those words everything stopped. I fell to the floor and started Crying.
"You should calm down and seat sir..." the doctor calmly said. "I cant calm down!the love of my life just killed herself!" "I understand sir. I Should leave. You can see her if you want."
Then he walked away. I entered the room. I can saw her body with a white cloth covering her. I felt numb. She can't be.
I kneeled beside her bed and took of the cloth covering her beautiful face. I cried there.
Because of those fucking hate I lost the love of my life...
A/n:Im a sad person so most of the stories are sad but I will start writing some happy shits soon.
If you ever feel lonely... tell someone and don't let depression eat you. Talk to me or someone. Pray all the time and God will help you
Love ya!
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