Loving him is so wrong!

Part 2 Chapter 27

Alana
Of course Serena's fucking water breaks. Of course it does and of course her dumb ass had to have been high risk and the baby is breech! We learned all this information in the hospital because Serena decided it wasn't information that we needed to know. Let's just say I wanna beat her ass right about now.

"Why didn't you tell us all this information about your pregnancy?!" Chandler yelled

"It was none of your business dad! I'm 29 I can handle this on my own. I wasn't supposed to be here today. I had a C-section scheduled for a week from now."

"Well here we are. I still can't believe you did something so dumb. You put him back into your life and he didn't even want to come to the hospital and support you! Is that the type of man you want? He is going to miss his daughter come into the world." I screamed at her

Now i know we all shouldn't be screaming at her about him but I swear she is the dumbest person I've ever known. I so badly want to fuck her ass up right now.

"Alana go wait in the waiting room with everyone else. You're not making this any better" Chandler told me. He held on the Serena's hand and gave me a stern look. I rolled my eyes at him and walked towards the door before throwing my middle finger up and Serena. I know childish but it is what it is.

I gladly walked out of the room and towards the waiting room with everyone else. I knew it was as coming that on of them was going to kick me out of being in there so I'm not even tripping on that. I walked towards the waiting room when I saw Derek walking through the doors. I instantly rolled my eyes and tried to walk past him but he stopped me instantly. I snatched away from him but he grabbed my other arm smiling at me.

"Damn Alana, just wait! Please,You act like I'm the worst thing that's ever happened to you. Let me finally talk to you please! No drama!" Derek said

"YOU ARE THE WORSE THING TO HAPPEN TO ME !! Don't you see that I don't want shit to do with you and yet here you are trying me. Every second of you being here gives me major anxiety and I want you out of my life!!" I screamed.

Some other visitors were looking at us but I don't care! he's done nothing but tormented me and just when I thought I never had to see him again he pops back up! The thing is that when I see him I feel this weakness over me. It's so stupid but this is the man that mentally fucked me up until I had to find myself again.

"Alana look at me. I know that I was an asshole to you when we were together. I know I did things that I'm trying to change but you won't give me the time of day!" Derek said

I looked at him and just watched him. He seems so off his rocker and he just looked disheveled. The Derek I knew was always put together and never not dressed to impress but today he seems worried and scared. I looked down at his hands and saw that he was moving his thumb over each finger counting. Something was definitely wrong with him.  I continued to watch his hands and then finally looked him in his eyes. Then I realized something.

"You haven't been taking your meds? When was the last time you have taken them?"

Derek just looked at me. Derek has manic bipolar disorder and he was diagnosed with it when we were in high school. Nobody but me and his family knows this about him he wanted to keep it a secret. I remembered when he told me and it made sense. When Derek was having his manic days he was very hyper, he would be talking nonstop but he would also get very angry and violent. There were times when he didn't sleep for days at a time. Then he would get really depressed and I wouldn't hear from him and he stayed to himself refusing to see anyone. Then of course being him he would also be angry because I didn't try hard enough to see him through his depressed time. Even though he has this mental illness it still isn't an excuse for the way he was and still is. Fucking mean ass manipulative piece of shit!