when you both got into a heated argument and his anger issues came up
"She was literally throwing herself on you!" you yelled, getting frustrated over how your boyfriend seems so unbothered about everything.
"Do you think I would let her throw herself onto me while literally there were cameras all around?" Jungkook asked, getting annoyed too.
"Fvck that Jungkook. Since when do you care about the cameras" you said.
"You're taking this too far Y/N" he said, turning around, wanting to walk away from you.
"Yeah? I'm taking this too far?! Go ahead and have her then. You two might as well just fvcking date by the way you were acting with her! The fans already love it, Go and date her" you said in frustration, already feeling the tears wanting to fall.
Jungkook stopped in his tracks and turned around.
"Do you hear yourself?" Jungkook ask.
"I do and I mean every single word." you said, biting your lips to hold back your tears.
"So you'd let go of me just because some girl was close to me?" Jungkook raised his eyebrows.
"SHE WASNT CLOSE TO YOU JUNGKOOK! SHE LITERALLY THREW HERSELF ON YOU AND YOU LITERALLY TOOK HER-"
"I DIDN'T FVCKING DO ANYTHING WITH HER Y/N! FOR FVCKS SAKE. DID YOU THINK I WAS GOING TO FVCK HER OR SOMETHING?! SHOULD I?! IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT?!" he yelled.
He knew he messed up when he asked the question of 'Should i?'. He knew about your past with your ex and yet he brought the topic up and even insisted on it.
"You can do whatever the fvck you want." you said through gritted teeth, tears now had already fallen and you walked past him to head to your bedroom.
Before you manage to walk past him fully, he stopped you with his arm.
"I didn't mean what I said. That was messed up" Jungkook said looking at you right in the eye. His eyebrows were still furrowed. It was like he was angry at himself.
"Do whatever you want" you said trying to let go of your arm from his grip.
"Baby stop. I'm sorry. I really am. I didn't mean that. It's stupid, I didn't think before I talk" he said, not letting go of your arm.
"Exactly. So it came out naturally. Fvck that Jungkook" you said already sobbing.
"Baby no" he sighed.
You felt weak. You felt all types of emotions, you were angry, upset, disappointed and just lost. You felt weak. You couldn't even hold yourself up anymore.
Jungkook pulled you in a hug as he felt you giving up on yourself. He held you close to him and rubbed your back, letting you cry in his chest while he laid his head on your shoulder. You heard him sob a little, making you even more weak.
"Please forgive me. I promise I didn't mean what I said. It was out of anger. I'm sorry I really am please forgive me, that was stupid of me" he cried.
You just cried, not being able to say anything. You two had gotten home from an award show event where some fans and reporters were invited to the somewhat after party of the award show. Another female idol, literally threw herself on him and flirted with him throughout the whole night while you watch them from afar, not being able to do anything about it because your relationship was hidden from the public. What's worse was that they two had been shipped by the fans too and were always rumoured together. So that incident didn't make anything better.
Jungkook had been stressed too lately after getting in a lot of scandals with people he had never interacted with. The company had to shut down a lot of rumours about him and fans were worried about what was happening to him. He also didn't want you to feel upset about the rumours because he sure as hell didn't want to be shipped with anyone else but you.
All those pent up stress had turned into anger that he let out on you when he clearly knew you didn't deserve any of it.
He pulled you away from his chest and cupped your face. His eyes and nose were red. He seemed so disappointed in himself.
"Baby, please. Forgive me. I'm really sorry. I love you so much, please" he said wiping away your tears.
You bit your lip, trying not to let any tear out again. You nodded your head to reassure him that you're both fine.
"I'm really sorry" he said pulling you into a hug again.
"I promise, I swear to you, those thoughts had never crossed my mind. I've never thought of doing anything with her or even want to get involved with her. I really couldn't care less about her. I understand how it may seem like I wasn't pushing her away... but really you're the one I only want and have my eyes on everytime. I don't care what the fans think about me and her. I only want you, I really do only want you. I cannot think of anyone else other than you, trust me" he said.
You nodded your head, letting him know that you were listening.
"I love you so so so much, please forgive me" he said kissing your cheek.
"Please don't do that again" you let out in sobs.
"I won't, I promise I won't. You can slap me, hit me, kick me, anything. I deserve it" he said.
You shook your head smiling a little before leaning in to kiss him.
"I love you" you say.
"I love you so much" he leaned in again to kiss you.
You both ended up in bed... he made up for it.
