The next couple weeks were extremely difficult. I was hating the lack of independence and I was hating getting accustomed to the new dosage of medication I was on.
I had seizures a lot in the beginning due to the stress but I was doing much better the past couple days.
Juniper was healing nicely, already going back to school. I was happy that she was going better than I was because she deserved to feel better.
She was just a passenger in the car that I crashed. I deserved to feel this pain and I deserved to feel every emotion I have been feeling.
My sweet siblings did not.
"Alright, sweetheart. Ready to go?" Colby asked as I shook my head. "Not really." I said with a sigh.
Today I was going to physical therapy which I knew was going to hurt like a bitch. I was still on my crutches but was slowly getting better.
"What if I get you a treat after?" Colby asked as I rolled my eyes. "I'm not a dog, Colby." I said as he nodded.
"But you are a good girl." He said causing me to punch him in the arm as hard as I could. "Ouch!" He said as I rolled my eyes. "That didn't hurt." I said as he chuckled.
"You got a good arm, Jules." He said then helped me stand up. "Whatever." I mumbled then reached for my crutches.
"I can't believe I fucked up the same leg that I broke." I said as he grabbed my purse for me. "Yeah, it's not the best but you've been doing so well." Colby said as I made my way downstairs.
"Yeah yeah. As much as I love being with you, I am over being with you every minute of every day." I said as Colby nodded.
"Do you want me to leave?" He asked as I shook my head. "No, I just want to have my independence back. Not being able to drive fucking sucks." I said as he helped me get in the car.
"I get that. You're almost a week seizure free though." He said as I grumbled. "Five months and three weeks left." I said as he kissed my head.
"It'll fly by, darling." He said then closed the door and went to the drivers side.
I was starting to get annoyed with how lovely Colby has been. I knew that was a backwards way to think but I missed my kinda mean crime boyfriend.
As happy as I was that he changed his whole life do this for me, I felt like I was dating a different person.
He was so nice to everyone now, whereas before he was only really nice to me. It was such toxic way of thinking but I missed his grit and anger.
"You alright?" Colby asked as he started the car. "I'm fine." I said and looked out the window.
"You seem more annoyed than usual." He said as I shrugged. "I don't wanna talk about it." I said with a sigh.
"Okay, sweetheart. Whenever you're ready." He said as I rolled my eyes. "Do you think you've changed a little too much?" I asked as he chuckled.
"I mean I'm not killing people and I'm planning my day around picking kids up from school so I think I've changed a lot." He said as I sighed.
"Why? Are you falling out of love with me, Jules?" He asked as I chewed my lip. "Jules?" He asked after a couple minutes."It's not that." I mumbled and looked down.
"Then what is it?" He asked and kept the series tone he usually sported. "I don't know what to say." I said quietly.
"Do you not love me anymore?" Colby asked as I looked up at him. "I love you but I miss your grit. I feel like you're a different person." I said as he nodded.
