"What do you mean we can't leave?" Carter asked as I pulled a pizza out of the oven. "I mean we can't leave. We're staying put for the next couple days." I said as Jenna shook her head.
"Something is happening with Colby. What are you hiding?" Jenna asked suspiciously.
"Nothing, Jenna." I said with a sigh. "Let this cool, I'm gonna go grab the others." I said then went to go upstairs.
I knew that Jenna and Carter were going to be the ones that were going to catch on that something was wrong, but I was hoping that they would off on the curiosity until I could figure out how to answer.
I obviously couldn't tell them that Colby was a previous crime lord and how we met was him kidnapping me.
I couldn't tell them that he could very much so never come back because he fell back in love with the crime world or worse.
I couldn't tell them that he could be killed at any moment.
"No, Sam! We're not spies, we're princesses." Juniper whined as I walked into her room. Sam and Juniper were sat in the middle of the room with Barbies surrounding them.
It made my heart melt that even though Sam was getting older, he was still willing to play with his baby sister.
"Dinner's ready." I said causing them to look up. "Sissy, can you tell Sam that I'm in charge when we play Barbies?" Juniper asked causing me laugh.
"Honestly, I would be lucky he's playing Barbies at all." I said as she pouted.
"Sissyyyyy." She groaned causing me to smile. "I know, it's tough being five. How about some pizza." I said and held my hand out.
"I love pizza." She said and stood up, taking my hand. "Great, will you thank your brother for playing barbies with you?" I asked as she nodded and smiled. "Thanks, Sammy." She said and ran up to give him a hug.
"I secretly think it's fun." He said with a laugh, hugging her back.
"Reminds me of when you would ask us to play legos all the time." I hummed as we made our way downstairs.
"No, she's definitely hiding something." Jenna said to Carter as I came into the room. "Enough, guys." I said with an annoyed glare.
I was starting to get really annoyed by the fact they were constantly trying to figure out Colby and I's private shit.
Granted, I was hiding a lot from them for a reason but it was for their advantage.
The less they knew the better off they would be.
"Whatever." Jenna huffed causing me to roll my eyes. "Yeah. Fucking whatever." I snapped causing Juniper to cover her ears.
I knew I was being a huge bitch but my hormones were going wild due to the pregnancy and I was beyond stressed out about this whole situation.
"What is your problem?" Jenna asked as I shook my head.
"I'm tired and stressed out, Jenna! Nothing is going on other than I just need you to listen to me. You'll never understand how this feels, so just leave me alone." I said then turned to leave the room.
It was moments like this that I felt like I was completely over my head.
I couldn't raise these kids because I haven't even figured out how to navigate my own life. When I got to my room I slammed the door, groaning in frustration.
I felt like a teenager again but I guess it made sense with the influx of hormones radiating in my body.
Before I could even stop myself I sobbing, throwing myself onto the bed. I hated that I was feeling so unhinged but all I wanted was for the normalcy to come back.
