Purple Hyacinth | Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint

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THE TENDERNESS BEHIND THORNS
[ Alternate Universe ]

[ Note : I'm back b-tchesss, as promised since I have a bf now. Lol. ]

"You had your chance," it was too late to think that he was just teasing when he pressed his lips into mine. I don't know exactly what keeps me from pushing him away, is it because  of the current state of my body or the state of my mind.

My mind... is going blank.

He was careful not to put weight on my stomach although the wound almost completely healed. It was late when I realized that I'm having trouble breathing so I closed my eyes and hit him. When he pulled away I breathe out a sigh.

I laughed, but the tears gave me away, "We must be out of our goddamn minds."

"Maybe," he wiped away my tears but they were replaced with new ones and he repeated the action once again.

"You're unfair," he gave me a confused look as if he doesn't know what I was talking about, "I won't be able to resist."

He looked down at me, "Would you be able to if you're all better?" I smiled bitterly and shook my head. He grabbed my chin gently forcing me to look up at him, shortly after our mouths collided.

This time he didn't budge when I tapped his shoulder, he grabbed my wrist and held it down, on the side of my head. Soon the kisses trailed down my neck, he was sucking and biting and I was trying to keep quiet.

Truly, that night felt like the longest in my entire life.

When I woke up he was sitting on a chair beside the bed, asleep, the reason why is unclear to me. Maybe he was worried, maybe it was guilt, or maybe he's going to tell me to keep what happened last night to myself. Either way, I did not want to deal with him that day.

I was too consumed by guilt just as he might be, I was drowing in the river of regret but I'm not sure if that's true, I was sad and happy and I don't understand myself.

-•-

Like I predicted, not a single word about that night left our mouths. In fact we rarely talked if not about his plans, which the other finds confusing... suspicious, I told him about this concern so we pretended to be on good terms.

Everyday went as though time is running through the speed of light and I feel like I'm losing my sense of time.

The same thing happened. We pretended it didn't. And again, and again, and then it was as though a normal occurrence.

Lately I find myself out of it, staring at something from far far away. Sometimes I feel like each hour of everyday passes through the speed of light because...

Time... sure flies fast.

"Jihye! Jihye!" In the ruins of a temple where a scenario leads us I was calling for this girl who hasn't gone back to our starting point after Yoo Jonghyuk's call. I can hear someone calling my name a few steps behind.

I swallowed the lump in my throat, I questioned myself where are all my tears, why can't they come out right now. My knees gave in and I fell down, staring blankly at an ice wall, with a familiar face inside, she was pale, and her fingers are turning purple, her eyes were open yet not anymore does it glistens.

"Please.." was the word that first came out, "Please no.." I forced myself to stand, my feet were trembling so was my hands as I reached towards the frozen wall. I balled my hands into fists and starts hitting.

[ The constellation 'Princess of Self-Ruin' is covering her mouth with her hands ]

[ The constellation 'Celestia' is bowing their head ]