Loving Brian | B.C

Part 42: box and envelope

//daniel//

I know what I'm doing is wrong, but Tahnée is miles and miles away from me and there's no way to even have a small moment of physical contact.
Nothing she can do, nor I.
I know I don't even call her much, but it's just because... there's some part of me that feels guilty when I talk to her.
Surprise, surprise... I know.

I'm not going to lie though, I am enjoying the company of two women dying to see me. Having the experience of seeing two completely different kinds of lust and need. Oh, and hearing those sweet sweet words. Grunting and groaning leaving their plump lips with some profanities and... but then I think of Tahnée.

I never got that far with her.

She was the one who had the rules and boundaries, to wait for the right time. And on many, many occasions, I liked the fact that she was that way. Saving herself and the best moments for when the time is right. Why am I doing this to her?
She's all I ever could've asked for and I just throw it away.

Guess that's just what I do...

What if Micheal was right? She can find so much better than me out there, but yet, she stood by me every step of the way. Helped me through things that wasn't even hers to face.
I'm a horrible person.
But what's new?

I miss her, I do. She was always the one I turned to when things got hard and basically in anything I'd turn to her, but now that she's gone, so far away, and things get tough I have nobody. So I get my mind off things by going to Betahny and Hannah.

I get my mind off things with Bethany and Hannah.

I know it's bad, and it sounds bad too. Not the best way to get things done in this life and also not the best way to get through things, but it is what it is. And I'm already so far in this... no backing out.

-

I'm in the hospital, just got out of the ER where the doctors fixed my jaw. Now it's on Micheal if I don't call Tahnée because I cannot move the darn thing for about six weeks! No speaking, no sounds no words... six weeks!
But who needs talking when you have moves? Just because I cannot talk doesn't mean I can't... yeah.

"Are you okay Daniel?" I nodded as Hannah stood beside my bed. My eyes tired and swollen, but the pain ebbs through my jaw at a constant pace.
It hurts.

Fucking bad.

I grabbed my phone, wanting to text Tahnée but I doubt she'll answer me back.

Me: hey
Me: tahnée?
Me: how are you baby?

Tahnée: don't baby me

Me: I guess he told you huh?

Tahnée: he didn't even need to actually tell me Daniel, I made the assumptions on my own.
Tahnée: how could you though?

Me: I'm sorry.

Tahnée: and I say it again, sorry doesn't cut it Daniel

The next messages I sent her she just read. No reply or even a moment of typing back. Nothing. And I should've expected that.
I texted Bethany:

Me: come by at 7. Just my jaw is broken not me.

Time to get this off my mind too.

-

//micheal//

She found one!
She found a guy that is nice to her, treats her well and I can hear in the tone of her voice when she mentions him that he makes her unconditionally and obliviously happy.

He's the one.

I never heard Tahnée talking about anyone, obviously other than me, in that way. It's like she knew him for years before she actually met him, and it's only been a month or so. I need to meet this mystery man of hers. See him with my own eyes and give him the true permission to fall for my sister.

Joking.
But I will examine him under all circumstances when I meet him. Ask him some questions, see how he acts around her, when he's with her and even just see his tone or emotions when he talks about her.
If his eyes ligt up and his smile brightens, I know.

-

( 1 month later )

//brian//

Today marks the second month that Tahnée blessed my life with moving to Canada. I don't see her a lot because she started school now, studying to get her diploma in Somatology at the Chelsey Institute.

She'll knock them dead, I know it.

I miss her though, getting to see her almost every day, but now when I walk in to the flower shop I see a stranger. A substitute for Tahnée and now she only works on weekends, making my visit to her a short one.
And we cannot really go out.

In between tasks and hours she had to put in as work she tends to get incredibly busy. She makes time though, one of the less people I know who actually makes time for me and the rest of the people she cares for. She makes time to call back home and talk to Micheal and she makes time to see me in the open time she has between classes.

"Good morning. How may I help you?" I heard the strange voice from behind the counter as I walked up with a bouquet of yellow roses in my hand. Ready to buy, but the unfamiliar and fake smile behind the counter makes me sad.

I miss the warm smile of Tahnée, my best friend, seeing her eyes lighting up when she hears the bell, her head shoots up and she sees its me.

The leap my heart takes and the chuckle I let out when her cheeky blossomed cheeks catch my attention and my eyes just simply can't leave hers.

"Hi." I said coldly. "Can I have your name please?" "Brian?" I said more like a question and she typed away on the computer, squinting her eyes as the light of the screen brightens and she searched through all the names. "Craigen? Brian Craigen?" She asked with her eyes growing big. I nodded, unsure of what she's implying with my name.

Why is it such a statement?

"Just hold on a second." She rushed over to Miss Lily's room in the back, and the two of them cane over. She smiled at me, "Yes, this is the guy." She said with a sweet and loving tone in her voice. "Okay, great." The new-girl smiled, reaching for something under the counter.

I have absolutely no idea what's going on, nor why my name is now being called like I'm a ancient god or something.

"Here you go, cordially from Tahnée Summers." She handed me a envelope with a small box. Suspicious, but cute. "She also said after it's been given to you, you shouldn't open it untill she calls you."
"Okay." Was all I managed to get out over the excitement that's boiling over inside of me.
I kept on staring at the letter and the box, wondering what it could be as the girl scanned the flowers on to my account and sending me off with a warm smile.

I'm interested to what this is....