Loving Brian | B.C

Part 70: make a move

//tahnée//

I can feel that Brian is confused about me doing the things I'm doing. But my intentions are not wrong. I want to do this so that I can ease him in to realizing that I actually really really like him.

But I don't think he gets the message that way.

After about an hour, Brad and the guys had to leave so I walked them out. "Thank you for the meet up. It was really good to see you again." Surprisingly I just noticed that Bradley and I are the same hight. Funny. He gave me a tight hug, thanking me for the day as well before I greeted the rest of the guys too.
He came back for another hug, "I need to have the last hug." "You're such a baby." I laughed, giving him one last hug. He picked me up, tightening the grip around me.

"Bye." I waved off as they drove away. "You okay?" I heard a voice behind me, turning around to see that it's Micheal. At first I didn't say anything, wanting to just walk past him but he grabbed me by the waist. "Tahnée?" He looked confused about my attitude... surprisingly.

"How can you just tell me the day before you leave that you're leaving, Micheal? Do you know how that feels right now?"
"I told you I didn't want to tell you."
"But how is that helpful? Now I have to prepare myself for another few months or weeks of separation in just a nights time."
"Why are you so worked up about this?"

I looked at him in disbelief. How can I not be sad and depressed that he's leaving again? An on such short notice? "Just leave it." I walked past him, back upstairs. "Tahnée." He yelled my name but I just kept on going. It breaks my heart that he did it so carelessly, like I should just be fine with it no matter what.
He doesn't see my ache at the moment.

"She's in her room." I heard Brian say as I sat on my bed. The door opened and Micheal came walkig in again. "I'm sorry. It was short notice I know, but... I don't want to leave."
"But you're going to." He sat down next to me, took my hand in his and rested his head on my shoulder. "I'll see you for Christmas, yeah?" He looked up to me with big puppy eyes, making me laugh as the tension was lifted. "Most definitely." I kissed the top of his head, making him all happy again as I started to smile.

"Are you bringing B-boy along?" He whispered, wiggling his eyebrows. "I asked him." He got all excited, "He said he'll think about it."
"Thinking-shiminking. He needs to come."
"I'll talk to him."

-

//brian//

Tahnée and Micheal made up on their miscounted moment yesterday and now things are all fine. Those two make up really quick. I guess that's how it feels to have a true bond.

I need to talk to her. I need to know where I stand with her. I just need to.
I'm on my way now to pick up both her and Micheal to take them to the airport. The day of his departure. Also another day of heartache for Tahnée.

"Morning." I said after she let me in to the apartment. The atmosphere already dull and grey as I walked in. The gloomy feel of sadness hanging in the air as not one of them had a smile on their face. "If it's okay, I'm going to sit in the backseat." "Of course." I said as I saw Tahnée taking Micheal's hand in hers, and we all walked down to my car again.

"Oh Brian." She said with a small smile, walking closer to me. Her had touched my arm and a feeling of warmth came over me. My cheeks started burning and my heartbeat raised. Just one touch, and this is all she awakens within me. Bloody everything. "Thank you for coming and taking us." She said softly as Micheal got in to the car. "Always."

God her eyes. I get lost in them everytime. Then I see her lips, and I can almost feel them on mine, like they've been there before. But I don't recall. Might just be a dream, but it's true. It's like I can feel her lips on mine, feel her touch in a different way than just a regular touch.
Can it be?

I closed the door behind her after she got in the back with Micheal. It was silent, the ride to the airport. She just rested her head on his shoulder as she held on to his hand. It pains me to see her this way, but I know he's sad as well.
Both of them will shed a tear, but luckily Christmas is around the corner so they'll see each other in no time.

-

We arrived at the airport and made our way over to the departure gate where now, we sadly have to say goodbye to Micheal.

"Please don't cry." He whispered as he wrapped his arms around Tahnée. I heard her sniffing in to his chest, her crying made him cry. The softness the two of them have for one another is incredible. "I'll see you again Tahnée, in no time." She gave him a long kiss on the cheek, a last tight hug and then... she just walked away.

I looked at him with confused eyes, "Don't worry. She'll be fine." He reassured me. "Before I go, I need to tell you that you should make move man. I can see you're confused about where you stand with her, but you won't know if you don't make a move."
"Easier said than done, Micheal."
"Hey, she promised me a guy that she'll fall head over heals inlove with, and she introduced me to you. Trust me, you won't make a mistake when you make a move."

He gave me a goodbye hug and walked in through the gates. "Make a move Brian!" He yelled before disappearing.

As I walked back to the car where Tahnée is, I started thinking about how it can be. I wonder if we ever think about one another at the same time. My nomad heart found home in her.
"Hey." I said as I saw her standing by the car door. Bloodshot eyes and runny nose. She pulled me in to a hug, wrapping her arms tightly around me as she pressed her cheek up against my chest. I slowly let my arms wrap around her, rubbing her back in circular motions in a small way of comfort.
"Are you okay?"
"As long as you stay, then yeah."

See. This is why I need to talk to her. What does that mean? Is it us as a friendship or are we moving forward? I need to know.

-

//tahnée//

He's gone.
Micheal is gone.

So cliche, standing in the parking lot of the airport in the arms of Brian, the sky packing together as the clouds formed a dark mass over us. "Please." I said softly as I looked up at him, my chin resting on his chest. "Please what?" "Please come with me on for Christmas."
He smiled a soft, faint smile. "I'm thinking about it."
"But I don't want you to think about it."
"Tahnée—"
"Brian."

He laughed at me, throwing his head back a bit as he does. "If I don't give you a answer before the end of next week, you can... I don't know— shave my head."
"Are you serious?"
"No. But I'll give you a solid answer before then." He chuckled, planting a kiss on my forehead before opening the door for me.

We drove back to my place and he just dropped me off. "Take care Tahnée, I'll see you again." He hugged me goodbye, getting back in to his car and driving off. "I love you." I sighed as I watched his car disappearing around the corner.

I want to tell him so badly, but I'm so afraid and everytime I open my mouth just plain bullshit comes out. The sad thing is that instead of taking a small risk, we're more comfortable with saying nothing at all. Why though?
If I know he feels the same way why don't I take the first step in saying something about it?

Ugh.
Brian Craigen, you do things to me that drives me insane. But I love it.