Loving Brian | B.C

Part 59: the after party

//tahnée//

I believe that sometime in your life, somewhere on a date that won't be known to you... you'll meet someone who will change your life. No doubt. It'll be like you've known this person for years before you ever even got the chance to meet them.

I know I say it a lot but Brian truly is someone who I know has that impact in my life. I seriously can't explain him or even begin to think how amazig he is. It blows my mind, he blows my mind. Ever since he's been around I smiled a lot more than I usually do. I feel ten times more happier with my position than what I did before.
Moving to Canada always stressed my mind and made me anxious about the things that I'll miss out on and long back to, and I'm not lying when I say that I miss a lot about that small town I call home. But here, now, I've never been this happy to be out of my comfort zone and trying new things. Totally starting over and taking new steps in to the unknown.

I like the new boundaries. I like the new places I see and the new challenges I have to face. I like the new people I meet and the new things I get to try.
So far, even though life put me through a rollercoaster with a hell of a log ups and downs, I finally feel like I'm enjoy the ride.

-

Dinner was absolutely amazing. One glass of red wine became two, became three and stories kept on rolling. Laughter kept on filling the atmosphere and all I worried about was washed away. Closure happens right after you accept that letting go and moving on is more important than projecting a fantasy of how the relationship could have been. I can't wait for the day that I can look at Daniel and feel absolutely nothing at all.

I'm letting go of who I really thought he was, of the love I thought he had within him and how he should've loved me.
I'm letting go of how I though we'd be in the time we spent together figuring things out. I'm also letting go of all the memories, the good ones and the bad ones. I don't want to remeber a single bit of what I had with him, nor what we were.
Thinking back now it was all just a complete waste of my time and I don't know why I never listened to the people telling me that this was wrong for me in the first place.

But I guess you have to fall sometimes in your life in order to get stronger and get back up. People will step over you and make you feel worthless, but then... when you rise you'll know you're worth. And you'll see that you're way more than what you think you are.
Life gets you down sometimes but it's people like Brian, Shawn and Micheal who make the getting up process all worthwhile.

"Thank you for tonight. It really was an extraordinary date." I chuckled, feeling Brian's hand slipping in to mine. "No, thank you for coming with me." I looked up at him as we walked across the street, back to his car.
He drove me back to my place, all the while we listened to John Mayer.
"Do you want to come in? Get some coffee or tea?" He nodded with a sweet, cheeky smile but then his eyebrows furrowed together. "Is that Shawn's car?" He chuckled. I looked up to see his all well known familiar black Jeep parked on the side of the road. "Oh my god. He's still here?"

As we walked up the stairs I told Brian that I messaged him, saying that Micheal is alone at my place because he wanted to meet him. But I never thought he'd hold out this long with him. As we approached my front door we heard the laughter and snorting coming from inside. "If my place looks like a pig hole I'll kill them."
"Doesn't it already look that way?" I gasped loudly at his statement, pushing him away as he laughed at me. "You're mean Craigen." "Not entirely." He smirked.

I unlocked the door and opened it to find the two of them lying on the couch, a bottle of beer in each ones hand and tears rolling down their cheeks as they laughed. This is a sight that I love to see. "What's going on here?" Brian laughed as he walked in. Both Micheal and Shawn got up from the couch to greet us. "Sis this was by far the best day of my life." He said in my ear as he pulled me in to a hug.
Hearing those words from his lips makes my heart so happy.

Micheal went through a tough time growing up. His family isn't the most wealthiest nor fortunate but their hearts of gold made them go in to every form of dept there possibly can be just so that Micheal can grow up as the rest of the kids. That's why my house was like his house as well. Most of the dinners were held over at ours and some weeks he'd even stay over because there was no way of him getting to school the next day. Although he lived right across the street from us, it was just easier to have us together than apart.
"I'm glad you had a great day." I smiled as he pulled away.

I don't know when he'll go to his hotel room but in a way I'm bumped that he needs to leave. I'd like to keep him here, under my wing, in my arms. My favorite guy.

-

//shawn//

After Brian and Tahnée got back from their 'date' the party just got bigger. As the night got even younger, we felt more alive.

"Tahnée. Pst. Tahnée." I whispered, calling her over. She stood up from the couch and walked over to where I was in the kitchen, waiting. "How was your date?" I chuckled. "Are you drunk?" "What? No. No. Why would you think that? No." I puffed, rolling my eyes. But it probably gave away that I indeed am intoxicated and... drunk. "It was quite nice thank you." She blushed.
When I saw her rosy cheeks and how she smiled I knew she's falling in love. And that... knowing that and also hearing what Micheal told me about he and Brian, that made me happy. For both him and her.

Maybe I won't have to keep the secret of them both liking each other for too long. Maybe they'll both tell each other sooner or later. But this distance and flirting moments are driving me nuts.

"You like him."
"Yeah I told you that." She whispered back, and I realized how loud I was actually talking. At least nobody else heard it but Tahnée. Luckily.
"But we're just friends. It's way too soon for anything to evolve in to something bigger."
"For you or for him?"
"Both."
I just looked at her, wanting to make her think about what she just said. Is it really too soon, are both of them really not ready yet or are they just both too afraid to get hurt again?

"Just friends you say?"
"Yes Shawn. Just friends."
I looked back to where Brian sat on the couch, laughing away with Micheal. He's one funny chap.
"Trust me Tahnée, just friends don't look at each other the way you two do."
"That's not true. I look at Micheal in an awkwardly romantic way."
"But that's different. You have a way different sort of love for him than the one you have for Brian." She bit her lip as she didn't want to admit I'm right. I chuckled, walking back to the hous on the couch. Seeing her still standig in the kitchen thinking things out.

Her eyes met mine again and she smiled, shaking her head. Ah-ha. She admitted to me that I'm right. May not have said it in words but that cheeky smile gave it all away. Now she just needs to admit it to Brian. And he should do the same.

Oh love. One strange thing that can make you do so many weird hings.
Love.