just for you (years 3-5)

chapter 35

"can we talk?" draco says

"draco i don't want to be angry with you, and if i speak to you right now, it's not going to be pretty" i repeat the words he said to me just over two weeks ago, "but since i'm a decent human being, i suppose i'll let you say what you have to say. so go ahead before i change my mind"

"i didn't realize you were so upset" he says, looking back down.

"maybe if you had talked to me you would have noticed" i cross my arms, still glaring at him

"well you didn't make any effort to speak to me either!" he looks up at me with fire in his eyes "i was pretty upset myself"

"you were upset?" i stand up, "you told me not to talk to you until you were 'ready' and then didn't speak to me for weeks!"

"well i'm ready now" he stands as well, coming face to face with me

"good to know" i scoff, backing up slightly. we both pause for a second, each waiting for the other to make the next move

"why did you do it" draco says, suddenly

"you seriously have to ask me that?" i laugh, "i thought you, out of everyone, would know i would never put my name in there"

"then how did goblet select you if you didn't put in your name?" he raises his eyebrow, closing in on me again

"that's a good question! i've been wondering the exact same thing!" i almost laugh again, completely over having to explain this to people

"it just doesn't make sense y/n. i'm sorry but you must have-"

"what, you don't believe me either?" i cut him off, "i've been going through a really hard time, draco, and you haven't been there! i thought i was supposed to be able to count on you for stuff like this and you- you what? don't have any faith in me? think i wouldn't have told you that i was going to cheat the system to risk my life for some stupid contest?"

"i thought you were doing it to get back at me! for saying i wouldn't have let you put your name in!" he says, referring back to our small fight on the quidditch pitch

"why would i risk my life just to prove a point? only you would do something that stupid" i roll my eyes, unable to believe he would think i did that

"excuse me?" he scowls, walking even closer to me, staring down at me angrily

"what? you heard me correctly. this whole conversation is idiotic" i sigh, turning away and attempting to walk out of the room, but i'm stopped by draco's hand wrapping around my wrist

"do you not even care?" he says, softer than before

"care about what?" i turn my head over my shoulder, still keeping a stern tone

"about how i've been feeling through all of this" he lets go of my wrist, his face no longer looking angry.. more hurt.

"oh, i'm so sorry malfoy, i didn't realize my suffering was such a burden to you" i say sarcastically, trying to turn around again.

"well it is!" he yells now, and i feel him move closer behind me

"what?" i turn back to him

"do you not realize how much i care about you? y/n it's been killing me not to speak to you, but i couldn't bear it with the idea that you might get hurt, seriously hurt, in a matter of weeks.. by god knows what... all because of something i'd said to you. that's what i thought. you don't think that hurt?" he screams at me, his voice cracking towards the end.

i stare at him in silence, not knowing how to react.

"what is it? surprised draco malfoy actually has feelings?" he frowns, titling his head, "i know you've been busy living the life of a hogwarts champion with pretty-boy diggory" he makes his voice high pitched, mocking my situation, "so it must be hard to take a break and realize your actual friends are concerned for you" he scowls, crossing his arms and turning his back on me, looking out the window

"you're the only one who seems to have a problem with me" i say back, walking quickly towards him until i'm right behind him

"when was the last time you've talked to daphne? or pansy?" he looks over his shoulder, raising his eyebrow, "noticed you've cosied up to potter as well. i'm the only one who dares to say something about it though"

"what are you saying?" i say, quietly

"we've all noticed it y/n. you barely hang out with us anymore, always in the library with potter or cedric" he scowls, turning his head back around

"sorry i'm spending my time trying to figure out how to not die in the first task rather than sitting around in the common room for hours on end" i say sharply, hitting at his shoulder, "besides, i'm not hanging out with you, because you told me not to speak to you!"

"i didn't really mean that! you've never listened to me before!" he yells, his voice still raw from his rant earlier. i can hear the pain in his words

"am i meant to read minds now, draco?" i roll my eyes, but i can feel my voice starting to give out as well.

"i just didn't want a fight like this to happen" he sighs, his voice tired. he looks down, seeming defeated

"well look where that's gotten us" i scoff, sitting down on my bed and placing my head in my hands.

there's silence for a while, and then i feel draco sit down next to me. i raise my head slightly, but stay looking forward.

"i'm sorry.... for not saying something earlier" draco practically whispers

"i'm sorry for calling you stupid" i smirk slightly, looking over at him

he chuckles, looking down at his hands, "how do we always end up like this?"

"like what?"

"fighting" he says, "we'll not speak for ages and then just... be fine again" he meets my eyes, worry written all over his face

"i think that's called a toxic relationship" i try and smirk again, trying to make a joke of the whole thing

draco smirks as well, shaking his head, "i didn't mean what i said earlier, about daphne and pansy. they really aren't that upset with you. i just knew it would piss you off"

"well that's good" i laugh. i look back at him, holding my necklace in between my fingers, "look draco" i sigh, "if this..." i hesitate, "...friendship, is going to work, you need to actually talk to me, honestly. i know you're not big on 'feelings'-"

"i'll work on it. i promise" he interrupts me, looking straight in my eyes, a small smile on his face.

"good" i smile back, "and i'll try spend less time with harry.... and cedric. no guarantees though, i do need their help for the tournament"

"fine. that's fair" he nods

"are we in agreement then?" i say, hopefully. draco nods with a smile on his face, "thank god. now, i need to work out what i'll be doing for the first task. cedric let me know what we're up against... lord knows how he found out" i stand up, "would you like to help?"

"i'd love to" he smiles, standing up next to me and walking out towards the library by my side.

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sh*ts getting real lmao

ALSO i was wondering if u guys can like tell where i'm from based on the way i talk HAHA i'm just curious

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