The Vamps IMAGINES BOOK 3

Tristan Imagine: Song Imagine

Treading Water

Tristan POV

This lonely heart of mine grows colder every night

And this glass upon my eye falls victim to the light

Loneliness, what is it?

What is love?

I'm lonely, but how am I lonely? I live with Brad, I see my parents regurlary. I see my sister and brother too. So, why am I lonely? It's weird being lonely when I'm surrounded by people. It's weird and I want to find out why. Is it because I'm single and James and Connor have a relationship and Brad is in this funk with a girl... official, not official. Is it because I'm the only single person in this band? Is it weird I want to find someone to take my loneliness away? 

Stuck in Ca-alifornia, world out before ya

But somethin's missin' (Somethin's missin')You should be happy, whatever that meansBut something feels different

Maybe she is in California, living and having fun. I hope she's happy. I hope I find out the loneliness of me. 

So wherever you are

Hope you don't take too longI need a little love in my lifeI need a little love in my lifeI'm breakin' my own rules (My own rules, my own rules)You can't hurry things alongSo when you need a little love in lifeYou'll find a little love

I'm hoping she comes here, I need a little love in my life. God, but I know I can't rush or hurry things since you'll find love when it finds you. I'd rather wait, even if it's years, for love. If I search for it, it could be the wrong kind of love. I will wait for it. 

Been pushin' love away to save myself the hurt

Ain't much heart left to break so clearly it don't work, work, work

Past relationships broke my heart so I pushed it away but it didn't work. CLEARLY it didn't since my heart isn't that full of love or big anymore. So, I guess eventually my heart will just be broken from the wrong kind of love. I have to accept that but I also want love, the true love not fake love. 

Grew up underneath the rising love
Watched it battle through the turbulenceI just wanna feel understoodPatiently, I waited patientlyTo share all of my insecuritiesFirst, I really gotta work on meGrew up underneath the rising love (I keep shutting down, mm)Watched it battle through the turbulenceI just wanna feel understoodPatiently, I waited patiently (Mm, mm, mm, mm, mm)To share all of my insecuritiesFirst, I really gotta work on meGrew up underneath the rising love (I keep shutting down, mm)Watched it battle through the turbulenceI just wanna feel understoodPatiently, I waited patiently (Lay down with me now, mm)To share all of my insecuritiesFirst, I really gotta work on meGrew up underneath the rising love (I keep shutting down, mm)Watched it battle through the turbulenceI just wanna feel understood, mmPatiently, I waited patiently (Lay down with me now)To share all of my insecuritiesFirst, I really gotta work on me

But I waited patiently but I think I need to work on me. I need to find out how to be me and not a boyfriend or husband. I need to work on myself more than ever. Maybe then when I find love, I will be able to show love, give love, share my insecurities..... I need to help myself before I give my all to someone. I will eventually be able to do it. I just need to patiently wait and work on myself. I need to be me before I can be a lover. Eventually love will find me, when I least expect it. 

'It is cruel, you know, that music should be so beautiful. It has the beauty of loneliness of pain: of strength and freedom. The beauty of disappointment and never-satisfied love. The cruel beauty of nature and everlasting beauty of monotony.' -- Benjamin Britten

I hope you enjoyed this one. We do need more songs about loneliness, it's normal to feel alone.

Lorna xx