His Nanny At Service

Chapter 33

Carmelia's POV (Finally!)

"When will she wake up?" After hearing vaguely familiar voice I wanted to open my eyes but it felt like someone tied a cloth over my eyes and I can't open them.

"Doctor said it might take six - eight hours. She should wake up soon sir." A female voice answered calmly.

"Okay. Ask the doctor to come and check up on her once again. And should I expect anything worse than this?" The person with familiar voice asked.

"Well, she might crave for drugs as the medicines are of high dosage." After few seconds the door closed and there was peace again.

"Well, wake up soon. The cops are waiting for your statement. Finally, those two lobsters are arrested. And I am going to do another mistake of calling our half brother. Just hope he is not like them or else I am doomed. You know I felt he should have a share in business, Ivy and Emi were so enraged!" He said after he sat closer to me and then I realized that this is Tristan.

"Today is the first day of Enzo's school life. Do you think he will make some good friends? Ivy sucked at making friends and nor are you great at talks. I fear for Enzo's future." He sure talks a lot so he thinks we talk less.

"You know, Aida says Enzo can talk if the situation such kind of arises. She suggested Idhaya will be able to help with this. The kid is pretty close to Idhaya and she adores him. And I am saying this to make you feel jealous... But you will not be able to hear anything so no use. I will say this again when you wake up, just to make you jealous." I feel as if I want kick him and then punch him... Such pretty face but useless talks!

"I...am not jealous." I said in hoarse voice and openedy eyes slowly, but had to shuty eyes again due to light.

"You... You woke up! Thank god, I felt I will have to bore myself by talking to myself." He chuckled slightly making his dimples look more prominent.

"And me too. Give me some... Water." I said and pointed at the glass of water. He adjusted my stretcher and made me drink water.

"For a minute there I was scared when you went to sacrifice yourself." He said making me chuckle.

"I am not stupid. I would never put myself in danger for those pigs. And for the first time in my life, I love living rather than dying. It feels as if I have so much to do. From sorting things out with Enzo to see my mother reaping what she sowed. And then there is a half brother whom I would like to meet." I said and shut my eyes again.

"You know, I thought you would die of drug overdose or maybe be suicide. I actually used look forward to this every day." He said looking at me which made me look at him too.

"I also thought the same. It felt as if without drugs I might not live another second, but look at me now. It is now I realized... It's not about addiction but about your determination to live. That nurse is stupid... I am not craving for drugs." I said after relaxing on the stretcher.

"Hmm... Not bad. What did you say about not being jealous?" He asked.

"I am not jealous. Frankly, I know I would never be a good mother. The word even if addressed to me gives some chills. Maybe, he can consider me as his friend." I said. And honestly, I never had an amazing mother to understand what it feels like. Many people might say that once you become a mother you realise how much heavenly it feels. I was also believing that untill yesterday and even went to look for Enzo. But after witnessing your own mother trying to kill you... I don't think I will be able to have that mother's warm heart. Not now, not ever.

"Why? Weren't you eager to become a mother just yesterday?" Tristan looked at me in confusion.

"Not that easy. After seeing live hatred of my mother, I don't think Enzo deserves what I went through. After all, apple doesn't fall far from tree." Already manhandled Enzo in the past, I don't think I can trust myself to take my responsibilities as mother.

"If it's thay then I should also fear about being a father in future or loving someone. After all, my father also is no saint." He scoffed making me glare at him.

"Your father didn't try to kill you!" I shrieked.

"He would have. Who knows! Seriously, you are being a coward now." He said and those words almost pierced my heart.

"Coward? I am coward, then what are you? Hiding your pain behind your non-stop as well as nonsense talks? What are you? You can't even share your pain with your best friends and you call me coward? I don't have anyone to talk but you have and still you hide your real emotions, worries and insecurities behind this 'i don't give a fuck' attitude. Say me you didn't cry when you were alone?" I caught his shirt's collar in my hands and shouted at him. He looked as if he was undone by someone with cruelty.

"I... I didn't." He said in small tone making me pull him nearer.

"Don't you dare lie Tristan, don not even think I haven't what you are doing. I also tried to hide myself with nonchalant attitude and look at me. Certified drug addict. Imbecile mother, prone to bring a murderer... All these because I chose to appear stronger than I am in real sense. I am seriously tired and I can't function anymore with a mask. Frankly, after everything I have done to Enzo... I would be happy if he even smiles ate rarely. I am not going to expect more than I know I deserve." I cried as he hugged me tightly. I could feel his tears on my hospital gown.

"Me too!" He uttered while crying. This is the first time I realized crying in front of someone who understands your pain can lighten you from within.

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This chapter drained my energy... Understanding a negative character and justifying them is adventurous task for any writer! Just loved writing this chapter... Hope you guys like it!

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