30 Year Old Lady Daily Life

Part 21

"What's wrong with you? Lie down like that? Got heartbroken?"Misaki tap Fei shoulders when she trying to wake me up who just lie down in my bed with bloated eyes cause crying.

"Let her be, Fei. I will bring your food, Maika"

"I am not hungry"

"What the hell happen with you? Your eyes even bloated like that"Fei interrupted again when I just ignore her question

"You need to eat. Tomorrow we still have to work. It's not good if you get sick"Misaki console me again.

"It's must be good"I answer with low tone. I am feeling like my energy just goes out from my body.

"Hey, seriously. Why you act like this? Who's the bastard which made you being like this?"Haah, I cover my face with blanket. Refused to talk. I am tired. I am doing that until Misaki and Fei finally left our rooms.

"Haah, finally"And then I close my eyes, sleeping. When I think, I am finally go to another world and dreaming. Someone wiggle my body.

"What?"I open my eyes, give annoyed look at Siri.

"Suguru asked me to give you message to pick your phone"I look at my phone. There are message from Suguru there.

'Gather in the hall to discuss our measurement task this evening'

Ah, again? Ugh, I don't wanna meet anyone from my team now. I am not in the mood.

"He asked me about your condition, like why you absent for dinner. Are you okay?"I get up from my bed and look away from Siri question.

"And Fei pack your food. There it is"I look at food plate in the make up table. Hhh, I don't even have appetite now.

"Where are they?"

"Fei and Misaki already goes to the hall and so I am. So, you wanna I am waiting for you or not"

"Just go. I will text Suguru"

"Are you sick?"She look at me, with worries.

"Just bit tired"

"Then you can rest"Siri give me a smile and get out from the room. I take my phone and type some message for Suguru, tell him I am not in good condition. I skip for tonight. After send it, I lying down again.

"So, this is how heartbroken feel"I sighed again. And get up from my bed. Look at the food. I don't have appetite but seems I still need to eat. I can't be sick for our last day. Ah, last day. I go sit in the chair and start eating. It's taste bland.

Tomorrow is our last day and I am feeling like don't have energy for it. Normally, I will have at least enthusiasm, even a little. Can meet with Hirata is one of the reason for it.  But now, it's like meeting with him like torture for me. It's became soo heavy. Suddenly, I hate being one team with him, maybe if I am not in the same team with him, I will at least blind with this 'like' feeling I had.

"Fall for him?"I remember what Misaki said to me. If it's not just light feeling, I must not be like this. At least, not being in mess like now. Haah, since when my feeling growing too big like this? I take a spoon of my food and put it in my mouth. But then, my tears fall again.

"Why it's falling down again?"I wipe my tears with my hand. At the same time, empty feeling attacked me. I am always alone by my self, but this is the first time I am feeling lonely can be this hurt for me to handle.

"There are not room for me. Even I am trying"I talk to my self while imagining how sick to feeling miserable like this. Like I will never enough for him. His eyes fixed to others. Annoying. Why I need to fall for others? Disgusting.