30 Year Old Lady Daily Life

Part 22

Today our last day for this measurement task and even I rest a lot last night, I am still in bad mood and have less energy. So, since our team walk enter the forest until we are finally in the last location we left yesterday, I just being quiet. I am usually like that actually but today it's bit give dark vibe than before. Maybe a lot.

I caught Hirata gaze with curiosity in it, but whenever I give him a peek, he just look away with shiver I think. Like his scariness bigger than his caring. Ugh, why this mind come to me again? I wanna cry. I hate this hopeless feeling I had.

"Are you okay?"It's Suguru who call me with lowering his voice. It's like he scared to made me shout at him. Am I that scary? But I can't give them cheerfulness after all, when I am in bad mood like now.

"Hmm"Suguru moving his head near my face, made me bit shocked, but I stay calm, maybe this is cause my mood too? Its like I don't care with whatever happen in front of me now. In my head just full with 'I wanna this just ended quickly. I wanna sleep again. In my bed'

"Hm, Maika"

"Hm"Suguru seems taken aback. I mean I just give him 'Hm' sound for his question. By the way, why my sorrows made them look uneasy like now? I never being a cheerful one in the team, so I am quiet or not it's not a big issue, right?

"Matilda said you can replace her and she sorry for everything"What is this again?

"Hah?"I stopped talking when I caught Hirata look at me with surprised. Seems I don't even realized my voice just in high tone now.

"Haah. She can take it. I don't care"It's pure from my heart, there are not hate feeling in it. But I know very well, my mood effect my tone. So, even me realizes how people will misunderstood my intention.

"Hh, listen. I am okay. Just leave me alone. I am still not in good condition. I am sick"Hirata now look at me with full attention. Why? Don't made me misinterpret your feeling again! Ugh, I am really wanna cry now. Please stop look at me!

"A little. Don't worry, I can handle it. I am okay with whatever role you give me"I talk to Suguru while looking at Hirata.

"No, No. You take this paperboard. You sick, right?"

"It's just light sickness. Don't overdo it"I look away when Hirata give me attention like that. Doesn't he knew its just open my wound? He must be firm from first time until the end, that's why I am misunderstood everything, cause you just sell your kindness freely like that!

"No, stay around me. If whatever happen to you, I will feeling guilty"Guilty? Haha, yeah this is right. After all, I am just his 'team mate'

"Whatever. Just start now, so we can go home faster"I talk coldly. And then Hirata just look confused again, but he prepare the tools and set everything while Suguru stand beside me. And other people just goes in the front to hold the measurement pillar.

"You seems gloomy. Your eyes, is it okay?"I give Suguru a death glare but he just smile for it. Okay, I don't wanna pay attention to this annoying boy, I prefer stay silent.

"Sorry, it's just soo long until someone give me a death glare. You just exceptionally different"

"Your eyes. It's cause crying, right?"I am gulping. Is it really shown?

"Mind your business"

"If I ask, you will kill me?"Huh, I laugh a little. It's bit funny to hear, why I need to go crazy like that?

"You smiling"Suguru just smile to me when I peek at him from aside. What's wrong with this guy? How weird.

"What happen? Suguru, stop tease her"Hirata step up again. He nearly finish setting our tools. Me, who bit confused with what happen now just walk and made distance with Suguru. Dunno, it's just maybe me but Hirata eyes seems like a glare to Suguru and yeah I just unconsciously made that distance, that's what my instinct told me.