Minsung waters

Chapter 44

"If you ask me. Yes. I'm having a great time on my 'all by myself' date right now. It's actually not bad to have conversation with no-one but me" Taeyong said looking at me. In a Totally offended tone.

"Fuck I'm sorry I just zoned out for a bit. What were you saying?" I asked awkwardly coz I was really guilty about not giving him attention. And I'm still thinking about that douche. I wonder if he still feels guilty of anything. But why the fuck am I still thinking about him. While I should focus on the future who is right beside me.

"Don't be sorry. It's okay. It's life. And it's not like everyday would be fun sometimes thoughts are gloomy" Taeyong said looking like a literal motivation speaker. Looking cute.

"Should we just sit?" I asked point at the domes were benches were there.

"Sure" he replied and we sat down sighing together. We chuckle at the coincidence.

"It's great. Our telepathy is clicking in" I said looking at him.

"Yeah but it would be great if we thought about each other in the same way" Taeyong said pressing a thin smile, I don't know why he seems sad all of a sudden. And why is he talking things like this.

"Pardon?" I asked being clueless and still looking deeply towards him but he didn't shared eye contact once.

"Nevermind hannie. It actually doesn't makes sense" Taeyong said now looking at me smiling a bit. But the smile wasn't the happy one, but was a dissapointed one.

We stay in awkward silence for a long time. "you are dissapointed in me, aren't you? Well can you just give the reason" I break the silence touching his hand. I don't know why but if he stays silent for one more second, I'll cry.

"There's no reason. And I ain't dissapointed. You aren't anything to me anyways" Taeyong said shrugging.

"What do you even mean but these open ended replies" I said being a little mad. At least let me know where I am going wrong.

"You just know everything. And the fact that none of us can change the reality." He replied.

"Okay you know what. I will change the subject now. Taeyong, can you just kiss me please?" I surprisingly speak up, not knowing I fucking said it in my mind but how did my mouth blurbed it out. Okay calm down hannie it's okay. It'll clear out things. And it's not like I don't wanna kiss him. I really want to. And the fact that I want to shut his confused sad mouth with mine.

"W-what?!" Taeyong said with the most hottest expression I'd ever seen. Cuz he had his eyebrows raised and mouth wide open in shock. "yes. Please" I said resting my hand on his thigh so he feels the need to kiss too. He looks at my hand and then in my eyes. We both lean in at the same time and he touches my side of face so softly like I'll fade away if he uses force. He rubbed my cheek a little in circles with the fingertips.

I slightly close my eyes but at the same time I don't want to cuz he's so beautiful so close. But moreover cuz I want to delete the previous person's image from my mind. I for the last time look into his eyes before closing them and take a picture in my mind of this Taeyong.

But I don't feel the touch. It's surprising coz he ... backed off. Without kissing me. What.

"I can't. I'm sorry I can't" Taeyong said massaging his temple and without looking at me.

"But I really wanted to. Why are you keeping me in mysteries." I said in a low whisper.

"Cuz I know I ain't the one you want to kiss" Taeyong replied getting up and seems like he wants to kick or beat the shit out of first thing he sees.