God, sometimes I wish I didn't have dreams especially when lately it seems the battles start even before I wake up. The dreams I have these past days put me on edge because they make You Jesus seem like the bad guy for some reason. It makes no sense. All I'm feeling right now is that it's all my fault. I wish I could control my dreams God. I wish I didn't have these dreams. God, I think I hurt not only You but also a little kid in the dream today. It was in first person point of view and I remember seeing my hand pull her hair God. Why would I do that?! I don't even like touching little kids when I'm angry! I don't even like hitting them unless its playing and I'm the play monster! I love kids God so why would I dream of hurting them?! Lord forgive me but I feel like a monster on the inside. It's something I have to go through and I'm thinking of calling the counselor in a bit but God...please don't leave me. I'm not freaking out as per usual and I think that's the worrisome some part. I'm confused why I dream these things and why I would pull a little girl's hair but the feelings aren't as crazy as before and I don't know if that is a good thing or something to get checked out. Please don't leave me Father. I could use some guidance please God...I'm sorry if I ask for too much...sorry for being like this God. Jesus, I'm sorry. Amen.
Candy.
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Spiritual"I feel like I'm going in circles. Like I'm stuck in a cycle and I can't seem to claw my way out of. It's feels like when I found my religion again I started grieving. Like all the things I've ever held in and ignored through others things are final...
