In Love Through War - Book 3

Part 117 - Book 3 Extension / Book 4 - Part 1

*A.N.: While the last part (116) was perfect for a book ending, I'm not sure i want to write an entire 4th book from the material i curently have. 

At the same time, it can't end here. So either the following parts will be added to Book 3, or be the beginning of a 4th Book.

Anyway, the story continues, and I promise not to leave you hanging.

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Moons I wish I'd die!

'Suicidal is not how I've known you to be.'

'Sometimes I wish you'd stay out of my head.'

'Kind of hard to do when it's the only head I have.'

'But technically, I'm not saying I'm going to kill myself. I'm not irresponsible. I know I have a pack to run and my people deserve this time of peace to mourn their dead, rest and recover from their wounds, and when they're well enough, maybe even rejoice as they acknowledge their great victory, against an enemy most likely bent on annihilation.'

'And yet...'

'And yet I wouldn't mind the ground splitting up and swallowing me hole. That perhaps would bring peace to me as well, not just my pack.'

'I know it wouldn't take much to send you over the edge, but you should hang in there.'

'Yeah, yeah, but I can honestly say I can understand or at least I think I can understand now why some wolves choose to end their lives when their mates die.

I know Al'Aeen only rejected my claim. And he was never willing to give me his mark and yet, while the bond was never a two-way road, my soul hurts like hell!'

'You don't really know if he rejected your claim. The witch might have done something to it.'

'I don't think even Sandra, no matter how powerful she is, could affect our bond.'

'He might be dead.'

'I'd know if he was, and even if he rejected me, I wouldn't wish him dead. I just wish he's happy, wherever he is.'

'Mhm.'

'I noticed that for the first time, we don't seem to share the same feelings about him. When I think of Al'Aeen, my emotions are not echoed by yours like usually.'

'So?'

'I don't understand. How can you not feel...'

'Honestly, I also felt the claim fade and it was... I was relieved. Like a shoe that doesn't really fit had come off.'

Jena gasps in shock at her animal's side confession.

'I can see your reaction to what I'm saying, Jena.

And it wasn't obvious to me until the bond got severed, but werewolves are paired together and equal to each other. Each has a human and an animal side.

I'm sorry, Jena, but Al'Aeen never had an animal side. He could shift into one, but there was no soul behind it. He said it, his human side was in charge of everything.

And it took me this long to realize my infatuation with him was mostly from mirroring your feelings, your connection with him.'

'You missed having a counterpart in our... or rather perhaps I should say my mate.'

'I... did. Yes.'

'I'm sorry, I never realized...'

'No worries, neither did I.'

'It seems his leaving has placed us in total sync once more.'

'Probably the only good thing about it. I'm pretty sure I would have been happy if he stayed.'

'Stayed and accepted the mate bond. And still, it would have been unfair to you if your happiness only mirrored mine.'

'We are one! Always. Your happiness is my happiness.'

'True and yet there is more to it.'

'Yeah. Though like you said, this doesn't really feel like we lost our mate. And it also doesn't feel like he rejected the mark. More like there was never one there, to begin with.'

'I know, right? Almost as if... come to think of it, it feels exactly like it did before I went to his Earth the first time. Before our first meeting.'

'Anxious, nervous and hopeful to find our mate soon? So we really are in perfect sync!'

'But should we dare to hope? For a second chance? It's unheard of!'

'Don't you mean a true first chance at a proper mate-bond? Because honestly, he treated you like garbage. I know he didn't mean it, but...'

'It was pretty unsightly, wasn't it? With a few good parts though...'

'Too few to make it worth it. And look at Conall! Even he eventually got his mate. Maybe there's a chance for us as well!'

'I hope we don't have to wait that long.'

'I'd rather wait with hope than know it won't happen. And Conall could not have known that when he was of age to look for his other half, many decades would pass before Vi would even be born.'

'Can you even imagine it? We would feel so old!'

"We've made contact with two of the patrols ranging around Multi-Unity's Oasis"Alastair informs Jena from her side.

"Thank you for telling me Alastair. I seem to be distracted."