seen it all before // 10th spam

i hear everything, especially when it's cold

i was this close to ruining the row of clean days i've been creating. yeah, very close. but then i thought about why should i ruin something good just because i'm an idiot in other fields of life? nope, i want to keep at least one thing correct, even if it's as irrelevant as not self-harming. now, with the soft sound of bts' "spring day" coming from my sister's earphones ("stop saying everything is your fault. not everything's about you"), i'm starting to rethink my decision of not self-harming.