honestly, i don't know why i try. as 2019 started, i made the decision to be happy, to do the things i wanted to do. but all this time, it just feels like they're all fake smiles. because i keep telling myself 2019 will be the best year ever, but on the inside i feel like it'll be the worst. most of my wishes for 2019 are about self-improvement. but seeing how my sister and i haven't talked all day, i see how selfish my wishes are. i should others and i should focus on making their 2019 beautiful, not mine. i'm selfish again... why am i like this? i'm always so selfish and then that results in hurting the ones i love. i shouldn't've been so hyped about this year, i should've just accepted that i'm still sad.
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seen it all before // 10th spam
Random" my head is haunting me and my heart feels like a ghost "
