seen it all before // 10th spam

a robot made of organs

the more i talk to my sister (or anyone really, but i rarely talk to anyone other than my sister), the more i notice how stupid my conversation topics are. i literally only talk about bts or some other shit that's completely unrelated to me. maybe it's because i don't like talking about myself, maybe it's because talking about the person i'm talking to somehow always ends up making me uncomfortable. maybe it's just because i'm so lost and trapped in my little bubble. yeah, i could talk for days. give me a topic and let's talk. but i can't start a topic on my own. that is almost always something no one is interested in. and i'm sorry that this is the way it is. i'm sincerely sorry to my sister and everyone who has to talk to me or expects to have a normal conversation with me. my mind just doesn't personally go further than my own bubble of things, people and topics that are only interesting to me. but, once again, if you offer me a topic - i can talk for days.