MIKROKOSMOS
TABLE OF CONTENTS
Prologue: Stairway To Heaven
Chapter 1: Heat
Chapter 2: We Had Joy, We Had Fun
Chapter 3: Excitement
Chapter 4: Mute
Chapter 5: 11 Minutes
Chapter 6: Courage
Chapter 7: Falling Apart
Chapter 8: Happy & Alone
Chapter 9: No
Chapter 10: Theory Of Everything
Chapter 11: A Scream
Chapter 12: Order
Chapter 13: Thought
Epilogue: BathroomPROLOGUE: Stairway To Heaven
"구해줘 날 나도 날 잡을 수 없어"
-방탄소년단의 'Save me'May 5th 2019, Sunday
I sat in the bathroom, staring at the blue tiles. The blue fades into a light grey on every tile. I've seen them a billion times before. But I couldn't stop staring. And my eyelids grew heavy. But I still stared. Up until I wasn't aware of being alive. The whole time, the heater was on. I have bad memories of it. Last year, on May 2nd, I decided to blame the heater for the fact I had collapsed. Somewhere, in the back of my mind, I was aware of what happened last year. Why didn't I just turn it off? I could feel my head growing heavier with each dead second that passed. After a long time, I was finally on the staircase with my sister. I lied to her, saying I had fallen asleep in the bathroom with the heater on and thus explaining my headache. I tend to put myself through little white lies such as that one. I didn't mean to lie, but those were the first words that came up on the staircase. I didn't mention pain anymore that night.CHAPTER 1: Heat
"싹 다 불태워라"
-방탄소년단의 '불타오르네'May 6th 2019, Monday
I had to sit down on the edge of the bathroom almost at the very moment I first entered the bathroom at 7AM because the pain in my chest was just being too much. The aggressive heartbeats followed up with a headache and breathing difficulties were so weakening. But not foreign. No, they were actually very familiar. Familiar to the point where I should've rolled my eyes. Blood pressure were the first words that came into my mind. And when I arrived to the breakfast table, I looked like an embodiment of death. My blood pressure was extremely high and Mama insisted I stay home. I listened to her advice and reached the living room couch. I lay there and try to sleep while Mama takes my sister to school. But it's impossible to fall asleep. I was frowning, angry at my sick heart. But I was too weak to lead inner arguments and thus managed to fall asleep.CHAPTER 2: We Had Joy, We Had Fun
"Goodbye my friend, it's hard to die"
-Terry Jacks' 'Seasons In The Sun'May 6th 2019, Monday
What woke me up was the sound of Mama's phone. My heart was calmer and breathing was easier. From then on, I seemed a little dazed (I don't know why). But I was okay. I laughed and spent fun time with my sister. Everything was okay. I was so glad the pain had let me go so quickly. I enjoyed everything I did with my sister that afternoon. A funny moment was definitely showing Mama a Vine compilation.CHAPTER 3: Excitement
"너만큼 나도 많이 무서워"
-방탄소년단의 지민의 'Serendipity'May 7th 2019, Tuesday
I woke up at 3:17AM to finish reading the book we were going to talk about in class on the same day. I had began reading during the spring holidays, but I never took it into my hands again. I really enjoyed it. I loved it. And I was so excited to talk about it in class. As Mama and I drove to school, I saw my Croatian teacher walking to the school. I jokingly said that I hope she'll give me an excellent grade because I spent the night reading it. However, in class, she never noticed my hand. I didn't say a single word. I was so disappointed and my heart was starting to kick harder.
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seen it all before // 10th spam
Ngẫu nhiên" my head is haunting me and my heart feels like a ghost "