seen it all before // 10th spam

gonna get rid of bad decisions (kpop)

i hope i die.

i'm standing in a freezing street with nothing to keep me warm. i've opened my coat and put away my gloves.

i should die.

i have no future and nothing to look forward to. i should've noticed by now that no one would ever see me as someone important.

i need to stop dreaming.

i've drowned my potential two years ago. it doesn't exist anymore. i'm too weak to try. i'm too dumb to succeed.

i need to stop believing.

love is a lie. hope is a lie. strength is a lie.

i don't love myself.

i never learned what my parents spent their lives trying to teach me. i never learned what my teachers tried to teach me. i'll never learn what my idols are trying to teach me.

life is a lie.

i'm done.