confusions of the heart

awkwardness

For the better part of the month, tharn and type stayed away from the other like the plauge. The two really couldn't stomach being around the other after what had happened at the party.
By the end of the month, type got home before his brother and tharn to be outside to be smoking a cigarette, to blow it out slowly to take in a deep breathe.
He still didn't know why he kept what happened to himself and didn't tell tharn the truth, In part it was because of his brother and if tharn knew he would tell tubla and type didn't want his brother to be sad, the other part type didn't really know how to come to terms with what had happened, he didn't see himself at all has gay always liked girls, so he didn't understand why he got hard like that.
Finally coming home, tharn had his arms wrapped about a grocery bag to come in after tubla who carried nothing to turn to take off his shoes to then eye tharn.
"I could have carried that you know."
Tharn shook his head.
"I have this, kitchen right?"
"Yes, I'm going to change my school clothes, I'll be right back."
Tharn watched tubla go upstairs to then turn to go to the kitchen, he placed the bag down to start to sniff about, he then turned his head to look out the kitchen window that was partly open.
Tharn signed to then shake his head to look down to the bag to make a face.
Tubla doesn't know type smokes, you need to get him to stop.
Tharn then moved about to go outside, even though he really didn't want too. However after that one night, tharn did everything and anything for tubla, becoming a bit more tentative, he felt disgusted, shamed, miserable with himself. He also was less affectionate to tubla, couldn't be that close to him after what happened with his brother but still wanted to be very much with tubla.
Taking another puff, type let the smoke leave his mouth very slowly, he then tensed to widened his eyes has he turned his head to the side to look at tharn.
He had grabbed the cigarette to throw to the ground to stomp on it to eye the action..
"You really shouldn't be smoking."
Type rolled his eyes to then fully turn to then go about.
"Fuck off!"
Tharn turned to eye him.
"You need to care about your brother more then this type. What if he...."
Type turned to eye tharn in anger.
"Oh dont you dare lecture me!"
Tharns lips parted to then step closer to type for his out burst to really eye him..
"How you've been..... Since.... You've been acting very.... Um.... What you told me that morning..... I've been..... Remembering some things and...."
Types eyes widened has tharn looked down.
"Tharn.......I don't know what your remembering but what I told you was the truth okay, now just leave me alone."
Tharn looked to type.
"I'm remembering a few....."
Type shook his head.
"Tharn I swear..... Leave me alone. Stop thinking about it, move on. Also stick to what you promised me 3 weeks ago, no more drinking, at least not under this roof."
Tharn signed to gulp to nod.
Type then turned to leave.
Tharn watched him go to then turn to look forward eyeing the back yard.
The things he was remembering was moaning, placing his hand over someone's mouth, feeling a hand to himself and having his hand to someone else.
Tharn flexed his jaw.
Tubla came down to eye type who went to the door to place on his shoes.
"Where are you going?"
"My friends house, I'll be back later, tell Mom and dad before they leave."
Tubla watched type go to chew at his inner cheek he then turned his head to look to the side.
Tubla then went about to look for tharn, tharn then turned to stop to look over tubla, a bit happy he was wearing his glasses again.
"Mm, tubla."
Tubla took in a deep breathe to then step to tharn to bring up his hands to play with his fingers tharn looked to the action a bit confused.
"Tubla?"
"Tharn......I um..... Want to.... Try again."
Tharn looked to tubla to dart his eyes about him.
"Try what again?"
Tubla gulped to step forward to then really look at tharn.
"I know nothing happened at the party, I know you were a gentlemen since I..... Fell asleep but.....I really want us to...... Um....."
Tharn took in a very deep breathe.
"Tubla......I don't want to put you...."
Tubla stepped closer to wrap his arms about tharn.
"You won't, I am so very shy to this so......I took a bottle from the party I want to try again."
Tharns lips parted.
"Tubla I don't want to drink again."
"Please tharn?"
You and I have been a bit distant lately, you haven't been coming over has much, haven't been kissing me, think this is what we need.
Tharn made a very hard face.
"Tubla......I really don't want to drink again."
Tubla signed to look down.
Tharn gritted his teeth.
"When..... Your parents leave?"
Tubla looked up with a smile.
"Yes."
"Mm.....I don't want to do anything like that with your brother around can you text him not to come home? Just want it to be you and me."
Tubla nodded, he then let tharn go to turn to eye his mother who called for him.
Tubla went to her, tharn watched him go to sign heavily.
I'm breaking a promise but, type won't be here so......
Tharn then went after tubla to help him in the kitchen, placing everything about tharn went to tublas ear.
"Remember you need to text your brother."
Tubla nodded to then take his phone out to begin to text, tharn watched to smile to turn has his tublas father started to talk to him, tubla then got distracted by his mother to forget to hit sent to then place the phone to his back pocket.
The two ate with tublas parents to then clean up after to see them off to then look at the other to then go to tublas room.
To his friends house, type darted his eyes has they all placed down the cards.
"Ha I won!"
Type rolled his eyes to then turn his head to look to the clock.
"Lucky asshole! Eh I need to go, it's getting late."
Type then stood for his friends to look to him.
"Why? Aren't your parents working late?"
Type nodded.
"Yes but tubla doesn't like to be alone."
The friends looked to type to then look at the other.
"How old is he?" One said.
Type looked to him.
"Same has me and you know it, his boyfriend and him are having problems, he doesn't spend the night, tubla doesn't like to be in the house alone. Nothing really I can do "
"Eh, Maybe let the faggot...."
Type widened his eyes to go to one of his friends to then place his hand to his collar to lift him up to dart his eyes about.
"What was that rano?"
Two of types friends stood up to eye.
"Type come on, no fighting, here, take a few shots for the road."
Type narrowed his eyes has he continued to look to rano.
"I know you talk shit about my brother, just do it behind my back, got it."
Rano nodded.
Type let him go to then turn his head to go to his other friend to grab the bottle to down a bit to make a face to then squeeze his eyes tightly shut to then take it from his mouth to then give it to his one friend.
He then turned to leave.
They all watched him go to then eye each other.
Type walked down the street to sway a bit, he then stopped half way home to take in a very deep breathe to then continue to walk forward.
Going in, he then took off his shoes and jacket to then use the hand railing has he went up, he then went to his floor to go to tublas room to widened his eyes has the door way slightly open, he looked to his bed to see tharn sitting down, with tubla who was to his knees, arms wrapped about him, mouth to him.
Type rolled his eyes.
Disgusting.
Type turned to then go to his room to close the door, to forget to lock, to then put his hair up with the hair band to his wrist, to then take off his shirt and pants to go under his blanket in his boxers to make a face has he was feeling the alcohol.
To tubla, he then placed his forehead to tharns to then peer his eyes to the side to look at the bottle.
Tharn darted his eyes over tubla.
"Tubla, I know your shy but..... Let's not drink and just...."
Tharn then slowly place his hands to tublas pants, tubla widened his eyes to then go back to look over tharn.
"Tharn I.......if you want to touch my....... And have me touch yours..... We need to drink.... Please....."
I have no idea how your going to react after what you....... See....
Tharn signed to then turn his head to eye the bottle he then grabbed it to eye.
Tubla looked to it to grab to then take a sip.
Tharn watched this to the eye has tubla was to be giving it back to him.
Tharn took in a very deep breathe.
Tubla texted type, he is not here.
Tharn gulped to grab the neck of the bottle to then down a bit. Tubla smiled to then have it dissapated.
"I'm not forcing you to drink am I? I'm not trying to...."
Tharn shook his head to then place down the bottle to give it back to tubla.
"Your not tubla, whatever will make you feel more comfortable."
Tubla smiled to then grab the bottle to take a sip.
Tharn took in a deep breathe, after a bit the two started to feel the liquor, tubla swayed a bit to then look to tharns package, he took in a very deep breathe to then place his hand to it to rub, tharn took down the bottle to eye down to start to breathe heavily.
Tubla gulped to then grab the bottle to really down to then give it back to tharn to then undo his pants to then take a hand in to place it over his limp ish member to start to stroke.
"I want to......"
Tubla bit into his bottom lip, he really was wanting to see tharns dick.
Tharn then placed his hand to tublas pants to start to undo his bottom to groan.
Tubla looked to him.
"What?"
"I need to....pee.....I will be right back."
Tubla nodded to watch tharn go to then eye the bottle, he had a few dirty things come into his mind, growing embarrassed and very shy he couldn't help but grab the bottle to down to then flop to the bed to start to fall under.
Tharn swayed in the bathroom has he was peeing to take in a deep breathe.
He then stopped to flush the toilet, to then go to the sink to wash his hands to sway to then go out to make a face.
He looked both ways to become confused.
Which one is...... Both the doors are closed.....
Tharn took in a very deep breathe to then step out to stumble to fall, he was too his hands and knees to have his head hung.
He shook his head to pick a direction to crawl to a door, he then moved up to place his hand to the nob to undo to go into a dark room.
"Nn....tubla?"
He heard a light noise, sounded liked an acknowledgement.
Tharn smiled.
He then got up slowly to have his head hung to undo his pants to then take off his shirt has he felt very hot to stumble and sway to the bed to then get in to wrap his arms about.
"Seems I know what you want to do...... Your not wearing anything."
Type Furrowed his brow to then slowly open his eyes to dart them about.
"What......."
Type then peered his eyes down to feel something going into his boxers.
"What the hell!"
Type turned his head to widen his eyes.
"Tharn! What the fuck are you doing in my room!"
Tharn made a face.
"Tubla..... Don't cuss....."
Type rolled his eyes.
"I'm not.....nnn!"
Type turned his head to look down, tharn placed his hand to his dick to stroke, type placed his hands to the action to stop it.
"No tharn! Not again! God you broke your promise! You've been drinking haven't you!"
Tharn furrowed his brow.
"You wanted to drink tubla, stop acting like this, my dick is hurting ever since you touched it, please take responsibility."
Type signed and hard.
Always with the good manners. Type then shook his head. There were more important things that needed to be addressed right now.
"Damnit tharn! I didn't touch you and I'm not....mmmm!"
Type lifted his head back has he felt a hand go up to feel a finger to his nipple to play with it, tharn went to his neck to kiss.
"Tubla please.......mm.... Touch me......"
Tharn then started to move his erection up and down between types cheeks.
Type whimpered a bit.
"Tharn Im not..... Damnit!"
Type lost his grip to tharns hand to his member to feel tharn stroke it once again has he played with his nipple to continue to kiss his neck. Tharn had targeted all of types sweet spots, he didn't know he had, since no one had ever done this to him, type closed his eyes to melt to move his groin up and down.
Tharn made a hard face to move his mouth away.
"Tubla.... This isn't fair..... Your not touching me."
Type gulped to open his eyes to start to thrash a bit.
"God damnit! This can't happen! Not again! You need to st....."
Type popped his eyes opened to turn his head to look to tharn to part his lips, tharn had taken his hand away to place it to his boxers to lower with his own to then place his erection between types cheeks to rub it.
"What are you doing!"
"I know you're shy...... Let me do this then....."
"Tharn you need to..... Fuck!"
Type turned his head to the side has he felt tharns cock rubbing itself over his balls and a bit to his erection has he was still being stroked off.
Type buried his head into his pillow a bit to moan to place his hands to his bed to grip, this was something else.
Tharn went to his ear to caress it with his tongue.
"Aaah tubla..... You feel so good....mmm....."
Type made a very hard face.
"God damnit! I'm not tubla! I'm type you asshole!"
Tharn froze to then stop immediately to then turn type, to then hover over him to place his hands to types wrists to look over him, type kept his head slightly to the side to look up at tharn to take in deep breathes has the alcohol was making him feel weak.
Tharn looked him over to make a very hard face, he couldn't see types hair that was pulled back, tharn sputtered a bit to then look down to see his dick was on top of types, he then started to thrust.
Types eyes widened to look down.
"What are you...."
Tharn shook his head a bit.
"That was not a funny hic.....joke tubla!"
Type looked to tharn.
"I'm not...."
Type lifted his head back has tharn started to thrust harder, pre cum came down tharns slit had did types making everything feel better and good.
Type bent his legs to either side of tharn to go up and down a bit.
"Mmm..... Fuck......"
This can't happen! This is tharn! Tublas man...... Shit! I'm such a piece of shit!
Type couldn't help but to start to thrust up wanting to cum.
Tharn smiled.
"Ah, cum with me tubla, know.....see you like it......"
Type started to thrash about to get free of tharns hands to place his to his chest to then try with no real strength to push tharn away.
"You need to stop! We can't do this! It's wrong!"
Tharn moved down a bit, to place his hands under types body to really thrust.
"Expressing ourselves, is not wrong! Aaah I love you tubla, please cum with me, I'm so close!"
Type squeezed his eyes tightly shut to then place his hands to tharns shoulders to grip has he went up and down.
"Ah shit! So am I but.... But...."
Tharn then went down to try and place his lips to types for him to open his eyes to shake his head to place his hands back to tharns chest to push him up to lift his head back has he's body bucked.
"Dont kiss me! That's gross!"
Tharn made a hard face to started to move even quicker.
"Your so mean when you're.......aaah I'm going to...... Going to...."
The two tensed to then explode, tharn hung his head to breathe very hard to then flop to types body to fall unconscious.
Type moved about uncomfortable, to then place his hands to tharns body to try to live him off.
Type signed and hard to close his eyes has he started to feel tired, he turned his head to place his fingers to the bridge of his nose to try to stay awake.
"Damn..... Alcohol..... Never....mmm.... Again...."
Type couldn't help but to be pulled under with tharn on top, not to know, he couldn't lie about this time.