confusions of the heart

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Saturday morning, type sat down to breakfest, to be darting his eyes over his bowl, to then grit his teeth has he heard tubla laughing, type signed to then get up to place his half finished food to the sink to then go about, tubla stopped with tharn in tow to watch type go upstairs with his head down.
Tubla signed to then hang his head to then go to the kitchen, tharn stayed to have his head turned to eye type has he went up to sign, he then turned to go to tubla to help him with breakfast.
"This is the third Saturday, type has acted like this, well I guess every morning he has been acting like this......"
Tharn turned his head to eye over tubla to then turn his head back to eye down has he was preparing food.
This is all my fault...... You and your brother having such distance.
"Tubla.....I think today after breakfest, I'm going to go home for a bit, you and type need to have a few hours without me about."
Tubla turned his head to eye over tharn.
"You know that's just a bandage solution."
"Tubla, you and I are joined to the hip most days, I love you, spend some time with your brother."
"Mm, you really are the best boyfriend."
Tharn gulped to sign, after breakfest tharn then left to go home, he stood before the door to make a face, he then went inside to close the door to then turn to eye his mother who was right there to hold out a book tharn knew quite well, she then placed her hand to his wrist to then pull him to the table for him to sit to then read on how to be a gentleman and a better son, tharn took in a deep breathe to then open the book to then start to read to his mother.
After, he went upstairs to lay to his bed to look to the ceiling to shake his head.
He always had to read that book when he came home, why he spent most of his time with tubla, however he was trying to be a pure gentleman and a great son has well.
Tharn then couldn't help but to smile has he heard type in his mind saying goody two shoes.
Tharn then signed to then go to his side to place a hand under his head to look to his wall, he started to chew at his inner cheek, he couldn't get what happened that one night and what happened the others, well what he could remember, out of his head, it was a time he didn't have to be in control, it was times he didn't have to be a perfect person, tharn couldn't help but to like that a bit.
Tharn then flexed his jaw to then get up to eye his wall clock.
I think 5 hours together should be enough time.
Tharn then got up to go back to tublas house.
To the couch, type and tubla we're watching a scary movie to be laughing and eating popcorn, hearing the door bell, tubla turned his head to smile and wide to then get up, type turned his head to eye to then sign.
"Your boyfriend?"
Tubla stopped to then turn to eye over type.
"That doesn't mean you have to go run and hide type, stay here with me."
"Fuck that!"
Tubla Furrowed his brow.
"Type!"
Type rolled his eyes to then get up to go outside, he wanted to have a cigarette.
Going to a secluded place for him to have a cigarette, he then inhaled deep to then let it out to then shake his head.
I hate your boyfriend tubla......I also hate myself for what I've done.......ugh.... Least my ass is fully healed and....
Type then tensed to then move the cigarette behind, he then rolled his eyes has he saw tharn.
"What the hell are you doing here?"
"Tubla is trying to find you, he wants to watch the end of the movie with...... All of us."
Type shook his head to then bring the cigarette about to then inhale to then toss the remain into a bush to then go about tharn.
"It's late anyways, I'm going to bed."
Tharn turned to then place his hand to types arm to then look to him.
"Type...... Please come and watch the end of the movie."
Type looked to the action to then take his arm away to then look over tharn.
"Go to hell!"
Tharn flexed his jaw. He then turned to eye over type to watch his retreating back.
"You really need to stop being a......a....asshole!"
Type stopped to widened his eyes he then parted his lips to turn his head to look over tharn.
"What..... What did you just call me?"
Tharn opened his mouth to then shut it, type turned his head to see tubla.
"Cool, you found him, come on type, your going to watch the end of the movie with us."
Tubla turned to pull type along for him to turn his head to eye over tharn who then followed, type then turned his head to look to his brother, he was very surprised tharn would say such a thing, type didn't know why but he felt kind of proud of tharn.
To the couch, tubla sat in the middle to be eating the popcorn, type and tharn we're to either side with there arms wrapped and themselves to be looking forward.
Type then got up when he saw the credits, tubla looked up.
"Come on type, we can place on another movie and....."
Type shook his head.
"One movie is enough."
Tubla signed has he watched type leave to then turn his head to look to tharn who was eyeing him.
Tubla then went closer.
"Well.....I have an idea."
Tharn widened his eyes a bit, type went to the stairs to then stop to then turn his head to eye them being close to make a face has an emotion went through him that he couldn't understand.
Type shook his head to then go upstairs to get ready for bed.
A bit later, tharn and tubla we're to his bed, sitting criss cross to be kissing closed mouth, tharn signed a bit, he wanted more, he then slowly brought up his hand to tubla neck to then press him a bit closer to then try to open tublas mouth with his tongue, tubla placed his hands to tharns chest to push him back to look at him a bit angerly.
Tharn hung his head to feel ashamed.
"I'm.... Sorry...."
Tubla signed has he looked over tharn to then move about to place his hand underneath the pillow to take out something, tharn then looked up to roll his eyes at the bottle.
"Tubla....."
"Tharn...... I'm too shy for..... This is the only way...."
"Tubla, this is not the only way, can we talk about this? Why are you so shy? I'm your boyfriend, you can tell me."
Tubla made a hard face to look down.
"Tharn, if you want to go further then....."
Tubla then started to unscrew the cap, tharn placed his hand over to shake his head.
"Tubla....no."
Tubla parted his lips to then look up.
"You don't..... Want me?"
"Tubla you know that's not it but....."
Tubla shook his head has embarrassment washed through him, he then laid to his side to wrap his arms about.
Tharn looked him over.
"Tubla...... Can we talk about this? I don't like you only seem to want me if there is alcohol evolved and...."
"Tharn......I really need you to go home."
Tharn made a hard face.
"Tubla...... This isn't....."
"Tharn please."
Tharn shook his head in a bit of anger, he then got up to leave, keeping his composure and calmness even though he was very mad.
He shut his door quietly to then go to the front of the stairs to then turn his head to look at types door to make a face.
To his bed, type was to his back to have his phone to his face to be eyeing over some things to then turn his head to the side to raise an eye brow has who came in.
Type then slowly got up to sit to the edge to look tharn over.
"What are you doing in here?"
Tharn took in a very deep breathe to then move a hand behind to then lock the door, type widened his eyes has he heard the click.