So if you haven't figured it out, I found a way to publish my stuff.
They were piling up and honestly it was a pain with how many there were to begin with and I didn't want to just keep adding more.
The phone (the one that I have been using) is painfully slow, so this process took longer then it usually would, however it did not stop me from making them in the first place.
I haven't gone to DND in a while, not since the car incident with Justin, not that Jacob knows about it. I feel a little bad that I've been avoiding it so much, work only giving me more excuses, but I really don't want to get in his car again.
Like Isaac drives like a mad man but at least he doesn't swerve or go over curbs on purpose, especially when I'm in his car because he knows it terrifies me.
Somewhere in the back of my mind is scolding me for acting like this, but I'm having trouble letting it go truly I am.
Jacob and I are okay I guess. Still together, though nothing has really changed.
I talk to Violet too, or well I talk, she see's the message and replies sometimes, which is the same thing.
I'm making big deals out of nothing really.
Everyone is just busy and I don't fall into their schedules, which is fine.
Mostly anyway.
Nethaniel and Dezaree got suspended due to lack of shots, they go back Monday.
I get paid Friday, or at least I should be. Not sure how much I made but in all honesty I doubt it's much.
I think I only have one more shift this week, which is Thursday 4-8, which is nice.
Money is money honestly, I got three shifts next week.
I'm tired. Emotionally, physically and spiritually. I'm just tired. Feels like I'm holding my relationships up with shitty toothpicks and paper straws.
Some parts of my life are falling into place whilst everything else is crumbling. . .
Doesn't matter. I don't matter at this very moment, I need to focus on everyone else and be a good friend, s/o and sibling.
Happy early Autumn Equinox, it's Thursday, probably gonna give my thanks to Demeter this year, or Antheia, or both. Not sure yet, haven't decided.
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Thoughts (Part 2!)
RandomSo honestly I didn't want to have to do this yet but Wattpad has officially given me no other choice. So here is the second part of my ever growing thoughts book. The first two/three chapters will still have Pietro as the name but I hope to eventu...
