if you call for me, i'll run to you | a doug ross fanfiction

28.

28.

night shift

January 16, 1997.

another night shift..

i was really getting sick and tired of these.

i stepped off the l into what felt like the tundra, snow blew in my face. i hated the cold.

"it's so damn cold out there" i told randy

"even too cold for the canadian girl?" doug smiled

"you guys are in tonight too?"

"unfortunately" mark said

"this might not be that bad of a night"

i was usually alone when i was working nights.

"don't speak too soon, there's nothing going on here" malik laughed

"even better"

i walked over to the lounge and stuffed my coat into my locker.

i sat near the admit desk.

"y/n, i have a proposal for you" kerry said

"don't listen to her" doug laughed, walking off.

"what is it?" i aksed

"for 50 dollars will you help me with my study, all you'll need to do is some exercise"

"hah, i'm quite alright" i laughed

"y/n isn't the exercise type" mark chooed

"okay that isn't completely true"

i stuck a finger out.

"sorry kerry, i'll have to pass on that"

"oh come on it's 50 bucks" wendy pleaded

"i can think of plenty of other things that'll pay me double"

doug giggled, i shot him a dirty look.

it was much later, i was taking a snooze on a gurney in an empty exam room.

"doug, carol, you'll want to see this" i heard mark say quietly.

doug let out a laugh, i heard carol hit him.

i sat up.

"you know, there's no peace and quiet around here"

i rubbed my eyes

"someones a cranky riser" doug smiled

i took a walk around the hospital, i stopped at the cafeteria. through the window i saw gant. he'd been really rough looking lately.

i sat next to him.

"you doing ok, gant?"

he stopped staring off into space

"oh, yeah dr. l/n, im just tired"

"please, you can call me y/n"

he smiled

"benton driving you nuts?"

"don't worry about him too much"

"he doesn't praise anyone and all he really cares about is himself"

"it seems like he cares about carter"

"well, carter was his med student last year, he was really rough on him at first too"

"never look for praises from benton, it'll never happen"

"when i started, i never actually thought i'd ever be a good doctor, i thoight i made a but mistake, moving to the states, trying to accomplish an unrealistic dream, it gets better trust me"

"gant, i've seen you during traumas, down in the er"

"you're really great you know"

"i know you'll be a good surgeon one day"

"thanks dr. l/n"

"y/n" he corrected himself

"if you ever need to talk, you know where to find me" i smiled

he looked happier.

hours went by.

"you look not- so-good" i asked doug

"really?"

"actually, i've been asking a lot of people that today"

"charlie, she came in, was raped and beaten"

"i'm sorry doug"

"it's sad that people do that"

"you can't save everyone doug"

"i know" he smiled

"unfortunately charlie is just an example of what happens to hundreds of teenage girls out in chicago"

"i'm not sure what we exactly can do to stop it"

"practicing medicine is a key example of you can't save everyone"

"as a doctor you want to and it's unfortunate when you can't or maybe someone doesn't want saving but i guess it's apart of the practice"

"there's always going to be problems in society"

"i think all we can really do is raise awareness of the dangerous people out there"

doug tilted his head at me.

"i was going go into psychiatry"

"really?"

i nodded

"you would've been good at it"

i smiled

"you're probably one of the wisest people i know" he chuckled

"well, take those words into consideration"

he nodded.

"will do"

he walked out of the door.

back into the cold...