if you call for me, i'll run to you | a doug ross fanfiction

36.

36.
when the bough breaks
October 16, 1997

it seemed like everytime i came into this er, there was always some big trauma coming in. it was like a circus.
"y/n, get in here now" mark yelled
i threw my lab coat on and ran to the trauma room.
"i need you to cross clamp this aorta" doug shouted
i got gloved up and took the clamp, crossing off the aorta.
"dr. l/n i need some help in here" carter said
"carter, i have a child's heart in my hand, you'll need to give me a minute" i warned
"can i get some gauze in here"
"he's bleeding out"
i stuffed gauze around the bleeding.
"get some more blood on the infuser"
doug spent another 15 minutes trying to revive this boy.
"y/n-"
i looked down at the boy
"doug he's gone"
he looked at me
"call it"
i took off my gloves.

"dr. l/n can you intubate this boy for me?" weaver shouted
i rushed over
"lily i need an intubation tray"
i looked down his throat, down his cords, i stuck the tube in.
a school bus got into an accident. i think it was run over by a train. that's why we have so many kids in the er.

"you got the head ct?" i aasked chuny
"yeah, it's off in labs"
i sat down next to the girl
"hey sweetie, i'm gonna fix your head okay?"
she nodded
"your name is claire?"
she smiled
"that's a very pretty name"
i put my gloves on
"are you gonna give me a needle?"
i shook my head
"i'll be right back"
i went out the room and found carter
"carter i need you to inject my patient with lidocaine while i distract her"
"okay?" he said i'm a confused tone
"do you have a pet?"
"i have a kitty" she smiled
"what's its name?"
"his name is oscar"
carter stuck the lidocaine needle in her forehead, to numb the area
"he's a brown and grey striped kitty"
"i'm sure he's cute"
"thanks carter"
"no problem" he said, wowed.
"i'm gonna start the sutures now, it's gonna make the cut on your head all better but you won't feel it okay?"
she nodded
"if it hurts just tell me and i'll stop"
it was only a small cut, a deep one. i finished the sutures pretty fast.
i put a dressing on her head.
"it's done"
"really?" she said, her eyes wide
"yeah, you did great"
"head ct is back"
"thanks chuny"
i took the film and put it on the light board, it looked normal.
she didn't complain of head pain either, i just wanted to make sure.
"i'll come back and check on you" i smiled
"your mom should be here soon"
"want me to watch her for a bit"
"that would be great chuny"

i've been dealing with kids all day. there they were all so cute, it made me much happier than working with adults.
but, i had a 22 year old male complaining of ear pain.
"hello, mr. parker i'm dr. l/n, your complaining of ear pain?"
"yes, it's been bothering me for the past few days, it hurts really bad"
"what's his temp haleh?"
"97, normal"
"are you having nausea or trouble hearing?"
"everything sounds muffled"
"i'm gonna take a look in your ear"
i looked in his ear, it was very irritated and red.
"okay, you definitely have an ear infection, i'll write a prescription for antibiotics that will take it away"
i wrote the prescription.
"that's it?"
"yeah, you're good to go"

"y/n, can you sign these?" lydia asked, she had a bunch of charts in her hand.
"sure" i smiled
it had been hours since i'd gotten on. i was so tired.
i signed all the charts
"thank you"
"oh i got you another one" chuny said, handing me a chart.
"you're a busy person" mark said, raising his eyebrows
"i guess so" i said, handing the chart back to chuny.

it was a little later.
"you don't look too good" carter said
"so i've heard"
"sorry" he frowned
"haven't slept more than three hours for the past month, the constant graveyard shifts don't help"
"i thought they didn't give those to attendings?"
"i didn't think so either"
"did you ever have second thoughts about being an er doctor"
"i think about it everyday" i laughed
"it was either emergency medicine or psychiatry"
"psychiatry?" he said, raising his eyebrows
i nodded
"you regret switching?"
"i don't know"
"nobody in the er ever said it but you weren't made to be a surgeon"
he gave a confused, offended look
"you care too much carter, surgeons aren't supposed to care. they cut people open, and send them off"
"you're good with patients"
"the er is a little tense right now, it'll get better"
"maybe you should've gone into psychiatry"
"shut up" i laughed
i started walking back inside
"thanks dr. l/n"
"anytime carter"