if you call for me, i'll run to you | a doug ross fanfiction

94.

94.
all in the family
February 14/15, 2000

carol took off a few minutes ago, i was away from the party and was treating a patient that had come in. i guess you could say, it wasn't totally enjoyable.
juliette was in my arms, the man didn't mind. he was dressed up as an angel and came in for a possible broken arm.
i was reading the x-ray when i heard chen scream.
"what is it?" i asked, turning the corner.
i couldn't believe what i was looking at.
"oh my god" i gasped
an erie feeling clouded over me.
not a good one.
"hold on, i'll get some gurneys"
i ran back to the admit desk
"you don't look so good y/n"
i shook my head.
"randy, i need you to hold juliette and malik, call the police"
lucy and carter had been stabbed, they laid in a pool of their own blood.

my clothes were soaked in blood. kovac and malucci worked on lucy and i worked on carter with chen and abby.
"lily, page weaver, mark and surgery" i shouted
"how did any of us not realize what happened"
"nevermind, lydia"
"we need to stabilize him"
"o-neg on the rapid infuser" i shouted
"airway looks clear" abby said
i nodded my head "let's roll him"
"two stab wounds to the left flank first one is a l2 4 centimetres of the midline the second one is l5 in the mid scalpural lac" i added
"did he hit the spinal cord?" chen asked
"depends on the angle" i sighed, looking at the wound.
"bp is 70 over 50 pulse 120"
"okay, squeeze in two litres and set me up for a sub clavian"
"good breaths bilaterally" chen said
"pulse ox 93" abby shouted
"should we intubate?"
i shook my head.
"no, ten litres by mask for now"
"send a trauma panel type in cross for 4 and get x-ray in here for a chest"
"and one shut ivp"
"abby, we need to set up for a foley"
"i'll go get the tubing" she said
a few minutes went by and benton came in.
"is he conscious?" he shouted
"hypertensive-"
"is he conscious?" he shouted again
"no but he's responding to fluid resuscitation" i said
"roll him, let me see"
i held onto his arm as we flipped him over.
"oh, man" benton groaned
"why wasn't the patient in restraints?"
"we don't know" chen said
"where's the foley?"
"i'm getting it ready" abby said
"no spinal cord injury" i said
"hang the next two units on the infuser"
"it's not set up"
"then get it set up" i shouted
haleh walked in the room.
"benton, weaver needs you right now she had to treik lucy"
my eyes went wide and my heart started beating faster again.
"book and or and get carter sent up" benton shouted
"and get the foley" i shouted
"second unit is in" i added
"pressures up to a hundred stolic" chen said
i looked at his pupils
"right pupil is equal and reactive, left is-"
carter woke up
"john?" chen asked
i hovered over him, trying to stabilize his back.
"y/n?" he groaned
"do you know where you are?"
"my back"
"you were stabbed" i nodded
"they missed your spinal cord" i reassured
"bp is 80 palp" abby said
carter let out a scream.
he turned his head.
"is that lucy?"
"yes, she's alive" chen said
"y/n" chen added
"what?"
i looked up.
"get benton, he needs to go up now"
benton came back in, wheeling him down the hallway.
i went to go check on lucy.
kerry was cracking open her chest.
i took off my old gloves, putting on new.
i took a deep breath "jesus christ"
"i'll get the paddles" i shouted, charging them up.
"charged to 15" i shouted
"clear!"
nothing.
"charging again"
"clear"
"sinus rythm"
"send her up" kerry said, haleh hurried and wheeled her gurney down the hall.

i felt like i was gonna be sick and sob all at once.
i took my gloves and gown off, heading over to the admit desk.
"jesus christ" i sighed, picking up juliette out of randy's arms.
"thanks, randy"
"how are they?" she asked, a worried look on her face.
"stable at least"
"headed to surgery now" i nodded, rocking my baby.
luka, mark and kerry were arguing as they walked over to the desk.
"why did no one see this patient?" she asked
juliette let out a whine.
"kerry, i take full responsibility" i said, mark turned around.
"i was talking to lucy about the patient"
"giving her advice" i shrugged
"and i should've taken over"
"well at least you were seeing patients instead of having a party" she laughed
"y/n, i'll talk to you about this in the morning, okay?" she added, pointing a finger at me.
mark came beside me.
"take the baby home okay?" he whispered
"are you sure?" i asked
he nodded.
"i have a broken arm in the hallway"
"and can you call me once lucy and carter get out of surgery?"
"it's all good, y/n"
"thank you for stabilizing them" he added
i nodded my head, giving him a sympathetic look.
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i got home at about midnight and put juliette to sleep. she was cranky and overtired. slept on the l, but wanted to be in her crib.
i sat on the edge of my bed and cried.
for once in awhile i didn't cry about myself.
i cried about lucy and carter. the poor girl laid lifeless on on that gurney.
all sliced up.
bleeding out.
and that could've been any one of us in the er.

later i got the call from mark that she didn't make it after surgery.
all i could think of was why i was even in that stupid er anyways. did anything even matter anymore?

a/n: just as i promised, i gave you  all another part. i hope you enjoyed it. this was one of my favourite parts to write. i hope everyone reading has watched this episode of ER. it's truly haunting. if you haven't yet, i highly, highly recommend it (i recommend all of ER, obviously). it really makes you appreciate the current moment. anyway, i hope you all are enjoying your weekend!
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