One Shots Book

Satisfied (Syndisparklez)

Idk y, but this happened. Yup. Enjoy the update I guess! Also, I guess this could be any ship, but I thought of it as Syndisparklez and so I'm writing as if it's Syndisparklez. Deal wit it.

I... No, I never wanna see you smile, And I never wanna see you satisfied.

I can't believe him. I can't believe what he did. After everything we went through- I never want to see him smile. In fact, I hope none of his little sluts ever satisfy him the way I did.

If the sun came up tomorrow And you lived in a perfect place, That just wouldn't be good enough for you.

We had everything set out perfectly. We had a perfect future, no worries in the world. But he just couldn't give up his damned alcohol. He couldn't give up his damn player habits. He had to continue sleeping around. Our future wasn't important enough, it wasn't good enough.

You could have a happy family, money, And the perfect face, But that wouldn't be good enough for you. Enough for you.

We could have had a perfect family, plenty of money, anything he wanted. I was so open to most anything he wanted. I did everything I could to keep him happy. But him cheating over and over was not something I could take. Knowing what was going on every time he went to a bar... I wouldn't stand for it. I guess everything else I gave him wasn't enough for him.

And I... No, I never wanna see you smile And I never wanna see you satisfied, On a Sunday morning now I'm moving on.

I hope he never smiles again. I hope his life is as horrid as mine will be without him. After everything I had done to save him, to save us. I hope he never feels the same satisfaction as I could give him. He'd always gleam every Sunday morning when he'd wake up next to me. I hope he never finds that same happiness with anyone else.

I... No, I never wanna see you die But I never wanna see you satisfied. Are you satisfied?

It's not that I want him dead. No no, I could never wish him dead. I still love him too much to want him dead. I just don't want him happy. I don't want him to ever feel the same. I wonder if he thinks it was worth it.

Are you satisfied how it came and went? Satisfied when I pay your rent? Will you ever regret all the things you said? Satisfied oh.

I wonder if he ever actually cared about me. I wonder if it even hurt him when we ended. I was probably just a passing fling to him anyway. He was only ever good at one-night-stands anyway. And yet he's still living under my roof. He's not really ever here, but it's just the thought that he still needs me to supply everything for him that angers me. He probably doesn't regret anything he's done.

I crashed and burned a thousand times Just to be your friend. But you gave me nothing in return. You played on my obsession for ya Until the bitter end. I can't believe I got what you deserved. What you deserve.

I threw away all my self-esteem and soiled my image when I became his friend. I looked bad because I had him always hanging around my shoulders. I got all the angry and disappointed looks. I got all the sneers. And I got nothing back. He didn't do anything for me. He just used me because he knew I had quickly fallen for him. Something about his humor or how much he could seemingly sober up to have real conversations with me made me think I was different. I wasn't. And I got all the pain he deserved.

And I... No, I never wanna see you smile And I never wanna see you satisfied. Are you satisfied?

I hope he's always in pain. Whether it be from a hangover or maybe even regret or perhaps just from some fight he'd gotten himself into. I hope no amount of alcohol could give him the same buzz he once felt. I hope he's never drunk enough again to have a one-night-stand and forget about it. I hope he always lives with the pain of remembrance. Because there's no way he regrets it.

Are you satisfied how it came and went? Satisfied when I pay your rent? Will you ever regret all the things you've said? Are you satisfied oh. Are you satisfied in another man's bed? Satisfied, you left me all but dead? How dare you ever deny all the things I did! Satisfied ahhh. Ohhh.

He doesn't regret how he lost us. He doesn't regret playing with my heart. He doesn't regret all the pain and suffering he caused me. He doesn't regret falling on me for everything. He doesn't regret the fact that he's still dependent on my help. He'll never regret hurting me. He'll never regret cheating on me. He'll never regret loosing me. He'll never regret his daily rounds with a different guy or girl. He'll never regret how drunk he gets. He'll never regret the hollow feeling he's left in my chest. He'll never regret the fact that I feel dead. He wouldn't even admit my ever loving him anymore! He's forgotten all I've done thanks to his alcohol and countless sluts.

I... No, I never wanna see you die. But I never wanna see you satisfied...

I do not by any means wish Tom Cassel dead, I just hope he's never satisfied again.