ALL I EVER NEED (PONGDDIE)

PART 16 - FEELINGS

MADDIE POV

I was in shock upon hearing what happened to Liz especially with Bea. I did not expect this to happen.

My heart melts seeing them together in the bed lying with all the bruises, stitches and swollen faces.

Kumabog ang dibdib ko seeing Bea lying unconscious on her bed. I also saw my teammates in tears upon seeing the two. Pinayagan naman kami nang doktor na pumasok sa room after nang mahabang pakiusap.

And si Jia, nakasalampak lang sa floor hawak hawak ang kamay ni Bea. She is blaming herself for what happened. And Ella is now the one comforting her.

Nanatili lang akong nakatayo and just look at them blankly. Hanggang sa naramdaman kong tumulo ang mga luha ko. Kaya lihim ko itong pinahid.

I am trying to hide the pain inside. Seeing Bea hurt that way, hurts me too. Because I do care for her, not just care. But I do love her.

Yes, she has been that person who caught my attention. The first time I laid my eyes on her, I know she is different.

I know for myself, I have a different feelings for her. As time passes by, it becomes deeper. It feels like siya lang ay sapat na. She is all I ever need.

And that feeling continuously grow everyday. Tuwing magkasama kami at magkakausap, she never fails to amaze me.

But I always saw her from afar lalong lalo na nang malaman kong may gusto siya kay Jia. Higit lalo nang aminin nila na naging sila.

I was hurt, I was jealous. I wish na sana ako na lang si Jia. I long na sana ako na lang yung taong mahal niya.

How I wish Bea would look at me the way she would look at Jia. How I wish she would smile at me the way her eyes sparkled while smiling and looking at her love.

I have been hiding the feelings so long. I have kept the pain within. And in any moment I might be in the verge of exploding already. Just like now, I want to rush towards her side and just embrace her.

But I just can't, kasi hindi pwede, hindi maari. Kaya nanatili na lang akong nakatayo and just plainly look at her from afar, like I always do.

Alam ko naman na kahit kelan hindi niya masusuklian yung pagmamahal ko sa kanya. I tried to let go of my feelings for her. Pero, siya at siya pa rin.

"Why did I fell this way for you Bey? Kaya ba talaga kitang kalimutan na lang? Bakit sayo pa? May mahal ka nang iba!"

Then, tumayo si Jia and touches Bea's face. She is caressing it with much love. Then, she lowered her head, I know she is about to kiss her, so I turned my head on the other side.

Kahit tanggap ko naman na sila nang dalawa, pero syempre hindi ko pa rin maiwasan na masaktan tuwing makikita kong naglalambingan silang dalawa at magkasama.

Kaya kapag andiyan silang dalawa lagi, iiwas ako ang tingin ko at yuyuko na lang ako. Minsan naman kakalikot lang sa phone, para lang may magawa.

Pagtingin ko sa kabilang side naman ay na andun si Jho. She is slowly touching Liz face with much affection. Jho's look and face is full of remorse.

She also felt bad kasi ang huling pag-uusap nilang dalawa ni Liz ay yung nagtalo sila. Nagsigawan pa nga silang dalawa sa loob ng room. Akala ko nga magsasapakan silang dalawa eh. Ayaw kasi patalo pareho.

And hindi nakatakas sa paningin ko ang biglang pagluha ni Jho at ang pagpahid niya sa luha.

She lowers her head and kiss the forehead of Liz. She stayed their for so long. Kung hindi ko lang alam na may boyfriend si Jho, iisipin kong may relasyon sila ni Liz.