ALL I EVER NEED (PONGDDIE)

PART 62 - HARD

LIZ POV

I was on my bed, thinking of nothing except from that moment where a gun was pointed at me and then came the three gunshots. Suddenly, Jhoanna just fell infront of me.

I don't know what just happened, my mind couldn't fully process what's going on, and what just transpired infront of me. Its hard to understand.

Hindi ko nga naisip kung paano kami nakarating sa ospital mula dun sa resto. And kung paano kami nakauwi mula sa hospital hanggang dito sa dorm.

Kaya mula kanina hanggang ngayon, yung utak ko parang tumigil na at hindi na nagfunction pa. Kahit salita, ayaw lumabas sa mga bibig ko dahil sa nasaksihan na isang pangyayaring hindi maganda.

Kaya tumayo na muna ako at nagpunta sa banyo para maghilamos. In that way, medyo magising ang diwa ko kahit papaano.

After madampihan ng maraming beses sa mukha ng malamig na tubig medyo gumaan ang pakiramdam ko.

I returned to the bed para mahiga, at saktong papasok naman sina ate Den at kasama ang magjowang Jia at Bea na magkahawak kamay.

DEN: "How are you feeling?"

May pag-alalang wika ni ate Den at naupo sa tabi ko sa bed. Yung dalawa naman ay nakatayo lang sa tapat namin ni ate Den na nagmamasid.

LIZ: "How was she?"

Malungkot kong wika sa kanya referring about Jho na iniwan namin kanina sa hospital na wala pa kaming balita.

DEN: "Hindi pa rin tumatawag si Ly, kaya wala pa rin kaming alam at balita. But let's just hope that she will be fine."

LIZ: "Why?"

Naiiyak at nagtataka kong tanong while looking at the three of them. Kasi ang gulo ng isip ko. But they were just silent in response and there is something about their reactions.

LIZ: "I don't understand, why she had to do that for me. Yes, we are a team.  But is that enough reason for her to do it for me, we're not even close as a teammate. I was not even  talking to her simula nung bumalik ako ng dorm. I have always been avoiding her."

Mahaba kong pagpapaliwanag because I don't really know why it has to happened.

BEA: "Kahit sino sa team ang malagay sa sitwasyon mo, Jho would willingly do it for anyone. Because that what she is. Close man kayo o hindi, for her we are a family."

Wika ni ate Bea at bakas sa mukha niya ang lungkot dahil sa pangyayari.

LIZ: "Why do I feel like it was not right. Why do I feel, she shouldn't do it."

Naguguluhan ko paring tanong.

JIA: "You are still in shocked until now Liz. Kaya do not overthink dahil maguguluhan ka lang sa ngayon. Jho will be fine."

Pag-aalo naman ni ate Jia. And she has a point, kasi the more ako nag-iisip, ay the more naman akong naguguluhan.

LIZ: "What if, hindi na siya magising? I don't know why I feel this way. I feel like I am to be blamed. She is not supposed to be there. Hindi niya dapat ginawa yun."

Doon na tumulo ang luha ko. I cried my heart out. Para kasing ang bigat sa loob ko ang nangyari pero hindi ko alam kung bakit.

I just felt so bad deep within and its hard to process. I couldn't fully comprehend what's going on. I felt something is missing.

Naramdaman ko ang pag tap ni ate Den sa balikat ko. Hanggang sa niyakap na niya ako.

DEN: "Liz, hindi mo kailangan sisihin ang sarili mo. Hindi ka rin namin sinisisi at lalong hindi si Jho. No one to be blamed for all of these except sa kung sino man ang may kagagawan ng lahat ng ito."