ALL I EVER NEED (PONGDDIE)

PART 50 - BROKEN

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JHO POV

Andito ako ngayon sa UPTC, that outing in Cebu just turn out too bad for me. It was something I wish doesn't happened at all.

After that morning arguments with Liz never na kaming nag-usap at kahit magpansinan man lang hanggang sa mga natitirang oras at araw namin sa resort.

Hanggang ngayon, hindi na kami nagkikita. Para kaming hindi magkakakilala, we are like strangers. Whatever we have, it's all over now.

I have been trying to recall what went wrong in all the conversations that we had, trying to figure out where our relationship becomes sour.

I was thinking kung may nagawa ba akong mali, kung may nasabi ba akong hindi maganda at sobrang nakakasakit. Pero wala, lahat naman yun reasonable.

I was thinking what pisses her off, what makes her mad para talikuran lahat ng meron kami. Para lang kalimutan lahat ng pinagsamahan namin.

Pero habang inuunawa ko ang sitwasyon mas lalo ako nanlumo at nasasaktan kasi I never thought ganun na kalalim yung pinagsamahan namin.

And what makes it painful is the reality that everytjing is over now. It's all over and nothing I can do about it kasi bumitaw na siya.

I tried to wipe the tears away baka mapagkamalan akong baliw na umiiyak mag-isa. Kaya lang hindi ko talaga kaya pigilan kasi masakit.

At some point I regretted na sinabayan ko ang init ng ulo niya at sinigawan siya na magkalimutan na lang.

"Dxxx Jho, that was so stupid of you! Sana man lang inintindi mo na lang kaysa sinabayan mo ang init ng ulo niya." (inis kong usal sa sarili)

Kaya lang wala na ako magagawa pa, nangyari na, tapos na yun. Masakit man isipin pero wala na kung ano man ang meron kami ni Liz. Its over.

Napukaw lang ang atensiyon ko when someone tap my shoulder. It was Trey. I called some of my friends pero busy silang lahat. Buti na lang when I called Trey, hindi siya busy and she is her now.

Seeing me cry, niyakap niya ako.

TREY: "Sige lang, iiyak mo lang yan."

She is patting me at the back to  comfort me.

JHO: "Huhuhuhu. Ayoko na. Ayoko ng ganito."

TREY: "Huwag kang mag-alala, maaayos din yan. Just give her time and everything will be fine."

JHO: "Anong gagawin ko? Ayaw niya ako kausapin. Ni hindi nga niya ako pinapansin. Hindi ko naman alam ang ikinagagalit niya."

TREY: "Try to understand her situation, I guess hindi rin ito madali para sa kanya. Kung nasasaktan ka sa sitwasyon niyo, palagay mo ba hindi siya nasasaktan?"

I just look at her trying to process her point.

TREY: "Ikaw ang nagsabi di ba na mahal ka niya! That she confessed to you about her feelings?! Sa palagay mo hindi siya nahihirapan na iwasan ako at hindi kausapin?"

JHO: "Anong gagawin ko? I don't want to loss her."

Trey has been eyeing me, as if trying to figure out something.

TREY: "Umamin ka nga Jhoana, may feelings ka na ba sa kanya? Yung totoo Jho? Hindi ka lang basta naguguluhan between Liz and Nico!"

And I cried. Hindi ko na kaya. I can't keep it anymore, akala ko kaya ko itago, hindi pala. (Jho naman kasi, Jibea lang ang teamtago kaya sila lang ang kaya maglaro ng taguan ng feelings... 😂😂😂😂)