counting change | yoonminseok

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Jimin woke up terrified.

He was used to waking up in random peoples beds and feeling sick to his stomach, except this time it was completely different.

He wasn't stuck with a one night stand and he didn't have a hangover, this was so much different.

He could remember going to the aquarium and being happy and starting to slip and he saw Taehyung and Jungkook and he snapped. He wanted what was best for them but since he already was on the verge of little space he couldn't help but feel even more hurt with them lying to him.

It was a white lie that they had meant no harm in, what other white lies had they told Jimin? White lies always were the start of it, then things would turn so much worse. And he had completely slipped and barely could remember anything after that.

Except there was no way that Hoseok and Yoongi couldn't know he's a little now, the thing he had planned to keep a secret was now out on the table for them to know.

He barely knew anything about them, hell they barely knew anything about himself! His favorite color, his birthday, his coffee preferences, they all were things he had no clue about. But they one thing they did know about Jimin was that he was a little, and he didn't like that.

He was wearing an oversized shirt that was undoubtedly Hoseoks and his two boyfriends were right besides him while he slept. He didn't know what to think, he didn't know what to do.

He wanted to get out of there before he had a mental breakdown but how was he supposed to do that without waking up Yoongi and Hoseok? He didn't want to have a talk with them about him being a little, he didn't want to have to deal with disgusted looks and pitying conversations.

He had been so careful not to ever slip into little space around people except Taehyung and Jungkook, except one simple misunderstanding with his friends destroyed that.

He had finally started trusting these people and now that was ruined. Why did he even think that he could be in a happy relationship? Sure Yoongi helped him and Hoseok had showered him with compliments but why did he think he had a chance at being happy?

Hoseok and Yoongi were happy together, why did he think he could just join their relationship just because of nice things they had said to him? People lie, just like how Taehyung and Jungkook did.

Jimin could feel tears starting to prick his eyes and he tried to stop himself shaking as he began to forget how to breath. He was panicking from overthinking about everything, something he had not done in a long time.

Hoseok woke up as he felt someone push him away and he opened his eyes seeing Jimin was awake. He crawled his way out of bed and tried walking to the door until he dropped to the floor and that's when he realized that the younger was struggling and taking deep breaths.

"Jiminie? Are you okay sweetie?"

Jimin turned and looked terrified seeing he had woken up one of the boys and hurried and pushed himself away and slammed into a wall. He was already beginning to see black spots in his vision and was crying, he couldn't find a way to calm himself down.

Hoseok rushed over there finding Jimin refusing to make eye contact and shaking as he struggling to take any type of breath he could. He grabbed onto his lovers hands and held onto them trying to get him to focus back on reality.

"Jimin, sweetie, it's okay. Just look at me, okay?" He said trying to sound calm as Jimin made eye contact with him his heart breaking as he saw how scared the younger was. "We're going to start taking deep breaths, alright?"

Slowly Jimin seemed to understand as he tried taking deep breaths and Hoseok gripped onto his hands. He began to calm down and as he caught his breath he slowly stopped crying, his face left with just swollen eyes and trails of dried tears.

"I-I'm s-sorry." He said as he tried to get his hands out of Hoseoks and stay looking at the ground. "I'll leave right now, I'm r-really sorry-"

"Baby what are you sorry for? You haven't done anything wrong."

"F-for being a little. I d-didn't want to t-tell you guys because i-it's gross and disgusting and childish and I'm s-stupid-"

"Sweetie being a little isn't something you should be ashamed of! It's part of who you are and Yoongi and I never would want you any other way. We barely even know you and we both already are head over heels for you. We love you the way you are and we'd never want you to make yourself uncomfortable for pretending to be something you aren't."

"Y-you love me?"

"Of course, sweetie!" Hoseok said truly meaning it. He was one who fell for people fast once getting a fascination with them. Yoongi seemed to be the exact opposite and need to completely trust someone before he could even think of admitting he loved them. "I love you in little space and out of it."

Jimin nodded as he began to relax leaning into Hoseok's touch more. It was only 4am and he couldn't dream of being able to go back to sleep, he didn't really know what he wanted to do.

"Can we go watch a movie?" Jimin said barely above a whisper as he looked at Hoseok. "I don't want to go back to bed."

"Of course! Do you want me to carry you or do you want to walk?"

"Carry please."

Hoseok smiled as he grabbed and picked up Jimin and left Yoongi alone to continue his deep slumber. He plopped Jimin on the couch leaving him to grab onto the blanket they had left there earlier when he fell asleep in little space.

He didn't question the younger about why he was panicking earlier he just fell asleep with him cuddled up next to him watching a movie.

I'm going to go look at frames for my glasses today! One of my eyes is near sighted and the other is far sighted so I have pretty wonky vision I guess. Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter~