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"Do you think therapy actually is helping?"

"I'm not so sure I'd like to judge it this early on. " Sungwoon said as he sat in a chair beside Jimin them both alone in the room as the therapist had left to the restroom. "It's healthy being here but it's just different. It's been so long since I've been able to talk to anyone but him anyway."

"Yeah," Jimin said sighing as he slouched further down in his chair. "I was trying to be really open minded but I just feel uncomfortable here."

"And that is understandable," a voice said causing Sungwoon and Jimin both to jump. They looked back to see their therapist, Dahyun, smiling at them. "Therapy really is subjective. It is healthy talking through things but it can be difficult to do that with someone you don't know, some find it easier with that aspect though. The goal is for you to find a good relationship with yourself and others. You can talk with your friends and find that peace or with me since I can offer an unbiased view on things."

"I just don't understand how we're supposed to talk to you when you're being paid to listen to our problems."

"That is also understandable." She said as she sat back down and shrugged towards the two of them. "I can't deny the fact that I am being paid since this is my source of income but I do care for people's health. I try to always be there for them and try to help them get better."

Neither Sungwoon or Jimin responded to that. The room stayed silent until the therapist cleared her throat to get the attention of the two again.

"Well I don't think we'll be able to make any more progress today. I know I am supposed to keep you here for two hours but both your rides are still here and I assume you'd like to leave as well," she said raising an eyebrow while both Jimin and Sungwoon nodded. "I don't want to try and force you guys to talk about it if you aren't ready but I can promise that it does feel much better and easier to overcome something like this if you confide in someone."

Jimin simply nodded in response hurrying to get up as Sungwoon followed him. He wasn't really comfortable with the idea of therapy and wanted to be able to get out. Sure he was trying his best to feel open-minded but he didn't like this and couldn't force himself to feel comfortable with it.

"Thanks Dahyun," He said as he opened the door allowing Sungwoon to exit before him. "See you next week."

The two walked towards the lobby knowing that their rides had stayed there waiting for them. Both of Sungwoon's grandparents had stayed here to wait for him and Jin had stayed for Jimin. Namjoon was going to stay as well yet he had to get back to the recording studio as he had a deadline for a song coming up. That meant Yoongi had one as well and Jimin couldn't help but wonder how he was feeling.

Hoseok had told him how Yoongi seemed to stress easily, how was he doing now? Working in his family's business and producing music seemed taxing and what about the unexpected break he must have taken to help out when he went missing? That must of meant he had even more work to do with an approaching deadline. Would he make time to eat? Sleep? Would he even have time to make it back to his apartment or be stuck in an office or studio all week?

And what about Hoseok? He would be stuck all alone in the apartment, how was he feeling? Was he going to the dance studio more often to dance through his feelings? Was he making sure to sleep and eat as well?

"You've finished already?" Jin said frowning as he got up seeing Jimin and Sungwoon walking in the waiting room. "Did she need to talk to us or anything?"

"Nope, she allowed us to leave early," Sungwoon said smiling as his grandparents were picking up their stuff getting ready to leave. "Our first session was cut short, our next one will probably be a normal length time though."

"Ah, thank you," Jin said nodding towards Sungwoon noting Jimin seemed to be lost in his thoughts. "We'll see you next week then, come on Jimin."

The younger grabbed onto Jin's hand and let the older lead him outside to his car. 

"Jimin?" Jin said sighing once realizing the boy still seemed to be stuck thinking while he put on his seatbelt. The older frowned and snapped his fingers in front of his face getting the attention of the younger. "Hey, don't stay stuck alone in your thoughts, that isn't good for you."

"Sorry, hyung."

"Hey, do you still want to go dye your hair? We don't have to if you don't want to, I just remembered you mentioned something about it."

"Yeah," Jimin said as he looked in the side mirror of the car seeing how his pink hair had now faded to an orange-blond. "What color do you think would look best on me, hyung?"

"Anything really," Jin said as he started up the car so they could go to buy some hair dye on their way home. "It's your decision, you can choose whatever you want."

The boy stared at the window letting his eyes occasionally flicker to the mirror staring at himself. He could see how eerily thin he looked and the normal clothes he used to be able to wear seemed way too big for him. He didn't like how that looked and couldn't help but feel disgusted thinking that he thought this was perfection, that he wanted to go even further than this. He wanted to be able to get over this and take over his own life, not let people or memories ruin anything else.

Physically his scars were starting to heal and he was going to make an effort to fix his mental scars as well. He wasn't going to stop until he was able to fully love himself and he couldn't help but smile remembering something Taehyung had said during high school.

Purple is the last color of the rainbow colors, purple means I will trust and love you for a long time.

"Purple," Jimin said smiling letting his hands brush through his hair. "I want to dye my hair purple."

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I'm so excited for the comeback!! The Walmart situation is upsetting but I'm sure we'll break even more records still! I'm especially excited for the Hopejinkook subunit, what about you guys?