counting change | yoonminseok

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"Let's watch another!"

"Jimin, it's 2am." The oldest said as he yawned trying to stay awake. Hoseok had ended up falling asleep  as he had a tough dance practice earlier and Yoongi didn't want to leave Jimin awake by himself. They never clarified if he was staying the night or not but the older surely wasn't letting him go back to his apartment at a time like this. "Aren't you feeling tired?"

"Not really." The younger mumbled in response as the three of them were under the pillow fort they had built earlier. "I am getting a bit tired of watching movies though."

"Oh? What do you want to do then?"

"Can we just talk?" Jimin said as he looked at his boyfriend tilting his head. "I don't feel like we do that enough."

"We text all the time, sweetie."

"I mean like just talking not having a purpose in the conversation or anything but just being there for each other. We've been dating for like over a month and I feel like I'm closer with Hoseok than with you and I feel like Hoseok is closer with you than with me and I don't want it like that." He said looking down as Yoongi turned down the volume of the television. "I want it to be balanced. I love both of you and I want you guys both to know that."

"Do you want me to wake up Hoseok so he can talk with us?"

"No!" Jimin said loudly suddenly freezing as he looked at Hoseok who appeared to still be sleeping. "I just want to talk with you. Shit, that doesn't make sense. I just was talking about balance and, ugh, I'm such a mess."

"Baby it's fine." Yoongi said as he wrapped his arms around the younger to let him lean against him. "You're not a mess and even if you were Hoseok and I would still love you you for you. We'll both always be there for you no matter what and we'll remind you that we love you constantly if that's what you need to feel confident about yourself."

"I feel more confident about myself than I did a couple weeks ago." Jimin said thinking back. He still felt insecure about a lot of things about himself but there were moments when being with his boyfriends could change that and everything would feel like it was fine. "There's still moments when I don't but they don't happen as often."

"That's great, sweetie." Yoongi said kissing the youngers nose. "You deserve to feel confident, you're beautiful."

Jimin couldn't help but giggle at the compliment feeling his face heat up. He felt happy hearing his boyfriend say that and he couldn't help but glance at some of the chips that were from their movie night. He sadly smiled knowing that he really did want to eat them and Yoongi had said he was beautiful but he still couldn't help but feel iffy about it.

As much as he wanted it to loving words from his boyfriends wasn't going to make him love himself.

"Thank you."

"You know I called you back then."

"Called me?" Jimin said quietly as he messed up the sleeves on the oversized shirt he was wearing. "When?"

"The day before you came to my apartment and met Hoseok."

Jimin thought way back to when that was frowning not remembering a call from him. He had been in little space then and the thought of eating the chocolate cake seemed to make his face twist in disgust. He so desperately wanted to eat one now but he felt that he would end up forcing himself to puke it up if he did.

"Oh, I don't remember that."

"I didn't expect you to but you did pick up."

"What?" Jimin pushed himself out of Yoongis grasp and looked at the older. He seemed serious and Jimin couldn't help but feel his mouth dry up as he began to panic. "I was in little space then."

"I know, and that's why I'm telling you this. I could just go on and never mention it to you as it wouldn't change our relationship but I don't want that. I love you, I don't want to keep secrets from you."

Jimin only nodded his stomach growing sick at the thought of what the older had said. It made him uneasy knowing that he knew he was a little before he had accidentally told them, would they have ever brought it up? Or would they had just lived with Jimin never telling them and him having to force himself to stay big around them?

But that didn't matter. Yoongi wasn't telling him this to make him feel scared or worried it was him telling him it so he could know he could trust them.

"Secrets." He muttered as his mind dashed from him skipping meals to the wound on his wrist and bruise hidden on his cheek. "You don't want to keep secrets from me."

"I want you to feel safe around Hoseok and I. I want us to be able to protect you and make sure you don't have to go through anything bad again. I actually brought this up when I called you that time but I really want to be able to go through with it now." Yoongi said as he moved a hand through his hair and let him stare at the younger. Jimin could tell he was nervous which was weird since he hadn't seen the older lose his cool often. "I want to be able to protect you, sweetie. I want you to move in with Hoseok and I."

"Move in?"

"You don't have to if you don't want to, I'm not trying to force you to do something you don't want."  The older said as he moved his hands to cover his face as he began rambling. "You can still see Taehyung and Jungkook if you're here and you still can keep your apartment! I just wanted for you to stay here mostly so Hoseok can be with you when you're little and I can see you everyday but if you don't-"

Yoongi was cut off as a soft pair of lips pressed against his. And he couldn't help but melt into the kiss. It was short and sweet and when Jimin broke off to breath he giggled at what he had caused.

"I'd love to live with you guys, Yoongi."

If you guys had to guess how old do you think I am? My family thinks that I act really childish so I think that you'd probably guess younger than I actually am~