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Jimin had managed to push himself up into a sitting position and was currently waiting. It had been a full day since he had woken up and he was becoming more accustomed to the situation here.

He had learned that the nurse's name was Mina and she was very nice. She also had talked about how Sungwoon happened to be another one of her patients so Jimin couldn't help but feel slightly guilty with telling her to say he still was asleep. But that guilt drifted away easily as he'd get lost in his own thoughts.

He really wanted to be able to eat when Mina had brought him food, but he couldn't force himself too. He was without a doubt hungry and knew he hadn't eaten anything when he was with Bon Hwa, except for the slice of bread he was given.

And he felt terrible for eating that piece of bread and that thought disgusted him. The whole reason he ended up getting in trouble with his boyfriends was because he was refusing to eat and even after being kidnapped he still felt disgusting eating.

He so desperately wanted to eat when he was kidnapped but now that he was able to he felt terrible even thinking about it. Numbers of calories just seemed to fly around in his head and he felt like puking even thinking about it. He did want to get better, he so desperately did, but he couldn't seem to take the first step.

Mina was understanding when Jimin almost started crying when forcing himself to eat dinner. She took the food out of his sight as to not upset him and brought him water and a juice. Since he was so underweight he already had an IV drip hooked up to him and she slightly boosted it so Jimin would be getting the calories he needed to start making a recovery.

He did end up drinking a bit of the juice and Mina couldn't help but feel proud of him. It was evident the boy had an eating disorder before this whole fiasco happened and the fact that he had managed to willingly drink something that was heavy in calories was great.

Jimin had also managed to get up and walk around on his own but that wasn't something that the nurse was worried about. His only major thing was blood loss due to all of the cuts on him so he didn't have much strength. He looked nowhere near as pale from when they found him so she considered him to be doing good on that account.

Mina had suggested that he get assistance for taking a bath since he was lacking strength but Jimin immediately disregarded that idea. He didn't want anybody near him when he was in such a vulnerable situation, not even his boyfriends. He couldn't help but keep thinking about them though, would they even want to date him after figuring out what Bon Hwa had done to him?

He tried to ignore that thought but he just couldn't get it out of his head.

So Jimin had managed to take a bath by himself but Mina had helped rebandage all of his wounds. The pink haired boy couldn't help but notice her face once she saw the words that were carved into his skin and he couldn't help but feel disappointed they had yet to fade. He really didn't want them to scar and stay there forever, that would make him feel even worse about himself.

So here he was stuck simply waiting. Mina had kept saying how concerned his friends were about him and he caved in saying that they could come and visit him. So he was stuck waiting in his room for when the door would open again the beeping of the machines just seemed to be counting down to a moment he was dreading.

"Jiminie!" Jimin immediately looked confused seeing the door open and Jungkook rushing over to his side. He noticed how his voice seemed to be higher than normal and how he was more clingy. " Missesd you wots!"

"Kookie, calm down we're supposed to use our inside voices," Taehyung said as he walked in and behind him everyone else. Jimin didn't want to look up at them so he kept his eyes focused down on his hands trying to think through what to do. He was scared of this moment to see what they would think of him, or how they would act, and the fact that Jungkook was appearing to be a little completely threw off his train of thought. Since when had Jungkook, well it was Kookie now he assumed, even thought of slipping into little space? "So keep quiet, okay?"