counting change | yoonminseok

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"So have you ever thought about being a little?"

Jungkook just seemed to squirm in his seat keeping his head down to hide his blush. He hadn't expected Taehyung to be so blunt with his questions.

"Kinda? I always thought it seemed relaxing and wanted to try it, I didn't expect myself to naturally fall into it though."

"Why didn't you ever say anything about it?" Taehyung said frowning as he looked back down at the menu. The two had gone to a nearby restaurant so they could talk things through while everyone else was focusing on other things. "You've never even shown an interest in it when Jiminie was around and you haven't talked to me."

"I know how hard it was to take care of Jiminie without someone helping you and I didn't really want to be a burden, you know? We always were there for Jimin whenever he slipped into little space and I didn't want to force you to take care of two littles or make you have to choose who  was more important." Jungkook couldn't help but let his voice turn quieter as he continued talking not really ever expecting himself to voice his concerns to his boyfriend. "I didn't want to make it seem like I was jealous of Jimin, which I'm not! I'm perfectly fine with how much you hang out with him and always baby him and care for him without a second thought. He's our friend and he deserves to have someone like that for him."

Taehyung looked up frowning at how nervous his boyfriend was. He already had come to the conclusion that he definitely had put Jimin above his own boyfriend in the past but had Jungkook really felt like this the entire time? He was pushing his own feelings away just so Jimin would be able to slip into little space.

"Jungkook, Jimin is my friend so of course I care for him but you're my boyfriend. I don't want you to have to go through things like that, your feelings matter too."

"It's not that big of a deal I just got too stressed and accidentally slipped I can make sure not to do it again-"

"No! I don't want to force yourself to not slip into little space, you shouldn't have to be forcing yourself to go through stress alone, it hurts me seeing you force yourself to go through that."

"Me being a little just makes everything more difficult and I even slipped at the most inconvenient of times! I can just make sure it doesn't happen again and we can go and make sure that Jimin is okay. He's the one that's been through so much, he is the priority! It doesn't matter about me!"

"Of course it matters! I was stupid and didn't notice how you felt before because I was too caught up with Jimin, I don't want to make that mistake again. I care about Jimin so much and I know that he has been put through such a terrible situation again but that doesn't mean I don't care about you too! You're my boyfriend and you deserve to be happy, Jungkook, I love-"

"Sorry, is this a bad time?" The waitress said as she placed the waters down on the table and opened her book. "Would you guys like to order now or maybe later?"

"I just want a water," Jungkook said sighing as he placed his menu down obviously upset with the situation he was in. "Thank you."

The waitress glanced back at Taehyung expecting him to also give an order but he just seemed adamant at staring at his boyfriend. Instead of interrupting them again she just walked off deciding to get two waters for the table.

"Jimin's happiness is not more important than yours," Taehyung said sighing as Jungkook finally looked back at him. "I want you to be happy and I was stupid not realizing this before."

"It's not your fault, Tae." Jungkook said as he frowned. "You shouldn't be blaming this all on yourself anyways, it's partially my fault too. I was just scared about it, which I know I shouldn't have been! You're my boyfriend and me not telling you was like breaking your trust and I just you accepted Jimin as a little but I couldn't help but think you would hate it if I was one-"

"Jungkook I'd never hate you for anything, I love you." Taehyung said as he grabbed his boyfriend's hand from across the table and sighed. "It's not your fault you were afraid either. I should have been there to comfort you so you wouldn't have felt like that in the first place."

"You really still love me?  Even though I'm a little?"

Taehyung could feel his heart breaking with how sad Jungkook sounded. So he squeezed his boyfriend's hand and smiled.

"Of course I love you, silly. I'll never stop loving you for as long as I live. How about we go and get some little stuff for you after this? Then we can go back and hang out with everyone again, plus we might be able to talk to Jimin! How does that sound?"

"That just sounds so wonderful," Jungkook said as he began to grow less tense and smiled back at Taehyung. He could feel his eyes starting to water as he smiled since he was so unbelievably happy with how caring his boyfriend was. "I love you so much, Tae."

"And I love you too."

it's almost been a month since i've been on here, sorry