counting change | yoonminseok

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"Don't you like it?"

Jimin continued staring in the mirror letting his hand brush through his hair. The purple seemed to be a stark contrast to how sickeningly pale his skin seemed to look but he appreciated the new look. He wanted to make a change for himself and this was a good start.

"I like it," he said in response glancing to see Jin smile. "I really do."

Jin hummed in response as he went putting everything away from their hair dyeing journey. He hadn't talked about much with Jimin as he didn't want to push the boy and they both seemed to enjoy the silence. 

"You know he wrote words into my skin," Jimin said keeping his eyes stuck on his reflection while trying to ignore looking at Jin. He didn't know why he suddenly had said that but he had been thinking about it for a while and just letting it out seemed to lift a huge weight off his shoulders. "I just, they said such mean things and I always had thought them about myself since we dated and just him reminding me about them in such a way was hurtful."

"He carved it into my skin like a reminder. Saying things like slut, loose,  worthless, and whore. I just, he made me feel horrendous to go and act like only he would love me and my little self believed it again." The boy gripped onto the bathroom sink his eyes clenched as tears began to slip out. He could feel someone grip their arms around his waist and he couldn't help but heave trying to get himself to keep talking. "And he did such terrible things to me in that headspace and it scares me to even think about slipping back into it and having those thoughts again but at the same time little space is my stress reliever! I can't get myself to slip into it even if I try and what if my friends don't want me anymore? What if Taehyung and Jeongguk think I'm disgusting after what happened? What if Yoongi and Hoseok were only dating me since I was a little and now that I can't slip they'll hate me? And I know those are just stupid thoughts but I can't help but have them!"

Jin didn't say anything in response and Jimin couldn't help but feel glad for it. He didn't want to hear words in response to his rambled out thoughts, he just needed someone to listen. And as the older tightened his grip on him he couldn't help but turn around and sob into his chest feeling grateful he had such a thoughtful hyung.

Slowly his sobs began to calm down as he grew more tired and allowed himself to lean against Seokjin. He could feel he was about to fall asleep right when someone cleared their throat.

"Do you guys plan to eat tonight? I was able to cut all the vegetables and fruits without hurting myself, but I can try and save them for tomorrow or something."

"Mhmm no," Jimin said yawning as he pushed himself away from Jin to glance at Namjoon. "I'm going to eat something at least, there's no more skipping meals for me."

And Jin and Namjoon couldn't help but lock eyes and smile with how strong the younger was.

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I'm so happy TXT is promoting Cat & Dog!! Personally I really liked it better than Crown and now we get BTS and TXT interactions since they're promoting at the same time! The situation with their fandom name is a bit messy right now but I hope they're able to work it all out~