𝑱𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝑺𝒆𝒙, 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕? ➳ 𝑴𝒂𝒌𝒏𝒂𝒆 𝑳𝒊𝒏𝒆 🔞

73 | destroyed plans

ㅡ Jimin's POV ㅡ

These were definitely not the plans I wanted. We should've gone to a nice hotel and not this one. I don't understand how the nuns took us to a place like this.

We just put down our bags, which we had taken with us when those nuns gave us a lift.

《It's not that bad.》 Chaerin comments as she enters the bathroom.

True, it wasn't a crap motel, but it wasn't the place I wanted to take her either.

《I was going to take you to a better hotel than this one though.》

《I actually feel more comfortable here than in a hotel that's too ... well, too much.》

She gives me a shy smile. I had to guess, she's not the kind of girl who loves too many luxuries. It was enough for me to see her awkward way of behaving at dinner with my parents in that fancy restaurant and her panicked eyes when she was with Yoongi.

《I don't just understand how it's possible that they didn't have two single rooms, but only a double room.》 She wonders, touching her chin doubtfully.

《Well, you heard what the receptionist told us, it's almost peak season, the rooms are all booked.》

《I guess.》she shrugs as she continues to arrange her suitcase.

《I'm going to get our ID from the reception.》

I leave the room. Fortunately, however, we came across a motel, which also offers repairs for cars, in fact, my little girl is on her way back to me.

As soon as I arrive at the reception I notice that there is no one at the counter, so I ring the bell to make my presence known.

From behind the cabinet that contained all the keys to the rooms, comes out the man who greeted us earlier for check-in.

《Ah, Mr. Park, I was expecting you. Here are your ID cards.》 He hands them to me and I take them.

《Thank you and also thanks for lying about the room thing.》

I wink at him, handing him some cash, to show my gratitude.
He smiles at me in return, nodding his head, pocketing the money.

I went in before Chaerin to ask if there were any rooms available, but I convinced the receptionist to say there were only double rooms available.

Maybe it's not the most honest trick, but I don't want to miss the chance to sleep with Chaerin. I have no bad intentions with her, I don't just want to fuck her, I just want to spend as much time as possible with her. I want to make her understand that there is more out here, that she doesn't have to stop only on Yoongi.

As I turn to go back to the room I see two people entering with two suitcases, a girl and a boy. They seem to be about my age and Chaerin's. The girl notices me and stares into my eyes for fleeting moments, which are enough to make me feel in a strange way, almost attracted to her energy.

I return to the room with all the messed up thoughts in my head and a slight sense of guilt for forcing this situation. But it's for a good purpose, for her own good.

⚠️Trigger warning// panic attack.⚠️

My thoughts are abruptly interrupted as soon as I enter the room, I hear the sound of crying and suppressed screams.

《Chaerin?!》

I slam the door shut, take huge steps towards her and fall on the bathroom floor where she is. She is curled up on herself with her knees to her chest, her hands in her hair and crying as if she wants to throw up her soul.

Hwasa had warned me that she sometimes had these crying crisis and that she completely alienated her from the world. She doesn't realize when they happen to her.

I think back to the advice she gave me in case it happens. I have to make her feel my presence, only in this way she returns to reality.

I take her in my arms and carry her to the bed, I make her lie down with me, she holds my shirt with her hands and her eyes are closed, her breathing from her nose is heavy. In this way, her held screams stop but the crying continues.

《Shh ...》

I caress her back as she slowly calms down, her breathing becomes regular and her crying stops. Her body has some trembling, her eyes remain closed like those of a little girl who has just seen a horror movie.

She stays attached to me until she opens her eyes and her hands come loose from me.

She comes off, looks at me and wipes the tears from her eyes with the back of her hand. She sits on the bed, her eyes look around the room, then gets up and enters the bathroom, closing herself in without saying anything.

I don't know if she's embarrassed or if it upsets her to admit that Yoongi's departure still conditions her. I think it's more the second, Hwasa told me that she hasn't had these attacks in a long time and that must have caught her off guard.

Just in case I warn Hwasa, I ask her how to behave with Chaerin.

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《Chaerin? It's lunchtime.》

Silence.

《Can you go out?》

Silence.

《I'm starting to worry.》

Still silence.

《Give me a sign that you're okay at least.》

I was waiting all morning since she entered the bathroom. I don't know what she's doing, I don't even hear noises. Only deathly silence.

I texted Hwasa to ask her what to do and she replied that sometimes she did it when her father was dead, whenever she realized her father was gone she would cry and lock herself in a room and now the same is happening, but because of Yoongi. His departure must have reopened all those wounds. The only thing to do is to stand next to her as before and point out that she is not alone.

《I'll wait for you out here.》 I think my back is now the shape of the door design.

But then I hear the creak of the door and leap to my feet before falling at her feet, even if it's already too late for that.

《Here I am.》

《Hey, are you okay?》

She awkwardly touches her arm with her hand, stroking the skin, as if to console herself. She looks at her feet.

She looks up and nods, smiling at me broadly, looking me straight in the face.

《Shall we eat?》

I nod along the way, but I can't deny feeling for a moment bewildered by her behaviour. But not totally surprised, she probably had to deal with the incident that just happened on her own, I won't pressure her, I'll wait for her to talk about it.

Sometimes I think I know her well, but in reality, she is a girl yet to be discovered.

And I plan to do it in these weeks. I don't just want her to go back to what she once was, but I also want her to discover a new part of herself, together with me.

She will grow. I will grow. We will grow.

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