Monday
I've just almost poured hot water on my hand. How great. I wanna make a cup of coffee and I've almost burnt myself. Just because Marco wrapped his arms around me. Bad timing. I turned around and sent him a death glare. He giggled and pecked my lips. "Sorry." he mumbled against my lips and I nodded. "I wouldn't take it if I burn myself." I said and he pouted. "Forgiven?" he asked and I bit my lip playfully. "Yes." I said after a while and Marco hugged me. His hand arrived on my ass and he started humming something.
"How are you?" Marco mumbled into my neck and I had kissed his cheek before I pulled away. "Good." I said and he smirked. "Really?" he asked and slapped my ass lightly. "Yes sir." I said and he chuckled. My phone began ringing and when I was about to go and answer it, Marco grabbed my arm and my face arrived on his chest. "Don't answer it." he groaned and I giggled. "What if it's Marcel and he needs anything?" I asked and he pouted. "I have to answer." I said and pecked his lips.
Jessie? "Hello." I answered. "Hey. Em, I need you to do me a huge favour." she said breathlessly and I looked around. "Well, tell me so I can see if I could help." I said and sat down. "Well, it's about Fabian. He can't get some things from anatomy into his head because it doesn't make sence to him." she said in one breath and I sighed. Shit. I should help him. It's the last thing I can do after what he did for me. "And can't you explain it to him?" I asked and looked around. I hope Marco's not around. "No. I wouldn't ask you if I understand it." she said. "But you should know it. You're studying at university!" I exclaimed in whisper. "Yes, I am. But I don't understand it either. Will you help him or not Emma? Please." she said and I stood up. "I'll be there in half an hour." I said and I could almost hear the huge stone that fell from her heart. "Thank you so much. We're waiting for ya." she said and hung up.
I went to the bedroom and put on my jeans. Marco peeked through the little space between the door frame and door. "Are you leaving?" he asked and stepped in. "Y-yeah." I answered nervously. Think of an excuse. Where am I going?! "Oh. May I ask where?" Marco asked and I bit my lip. I'm gonna say a prayer if this is going to work. "Home. Marcel needs something." I said and Marco raised his eyebrows. "Shall I come too?" he asked and shit how nervous this situation is making me.
"No! I mean... I don't even know what he wants. It has to be a stupidity for sure." I said while trying to hide my nervousness. "If you need me call me." Marco said and I pecked his lips. Not too long kiss so I won't feel even more guilty. "Okay. Bye." I said, grabbed my bag and left. Phew. I will die from the guilt inside of me.
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"So now you understand?" I asked Fabian after an hour and a half of explaining anatomy to him. "I think so." he said while rubbing the back of his neck. "Okay. Listen up, you did quite well now and so you can pass the exam of yours tomorrow." I said and he smiled. "Thank you." he said and I stood up from the bed. "Okay. I should go now." I said and put on my coat. "Em?" he asked and I turned around to look at him. "Huh?" I asked and he came closer. "If I... if I need some words to encourage me can I ring you up?" he asked and I chuckled. "If you need it, I am here and so is Jessie." I said and opened the door. "Bye. And good luck." I said and he ran after me. He grabbed my arm and looked deeply into my eyes. This is wrong. So wrong. I'm gonna end up in hell. "T-thank you." he said and I nodded. "You're welcome." I said nervously and ran away. Literally ran away.
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I opened the door and sighed. I really am going to live in hell when I die. "Marcel?" I called while walking into the living room. "H-...shit." I said when I noticed Marco sitting there. "Hello Emma." Marco said and I rubbed the back of my neck. "Heeey." I said and looked at Marcel. I hope he can fell that I need his help. "So what's the thing Marcel needs help with?" Marco asked and stood up. Yes. How stupid my cousin is. Why the hell couldn't he just said that I was helping him with... with anything?!
"I...Marco...uuum." I don't know what to say. Nothing comes to my mind. Nothing. "Emma, just tell us where have you been." Marcel said and I looked at him. "With Fabian." I mumbled and Marco threw his hands in the air. "With Fabian? And what did you two do?" Marco asked ironically. "He needed help because he has an exam tomorrow and he couldn't understand it." I said and Marco smiled ironically. "Exam? Are you an encyclopedia?" he asked and Marcel sighed. "It's better if you two are alone." Marcel said and walked into his room.
"No, I'm not. But I helped him with anatomy." I said and he walked to the window and back. Window and back. Window and back. "Jessie should know it. Why couldn't she help him?" Marco asked and I feel the tears. What the hell is happening with me?! I've cried more times this month than ever before. "She didn't understand it either." I mumbled and he chuckled angrily.
"Emma why did you lie?!" Marco asked and I looked down on the ground. Not to make him angry? To safe his heart from being in pain? "I don't know." I managed to say while looking down. "Okay. You know what?" Marco said and I looked at him although I couldn't see clearly cause of the tears in my eyes. "When you know it, let me hear from you." he said and walked past me. "Marco, please." I sobbed and looked in his direction. He looked at me and shook his head. "You know, I wonder if you two did more than just studying if you had to lie." he said and walked away. He walked away just like that. I sat down on the floor and buried my face into my palms.
I heard Marcel opening the door so I looked there and saw him shaking his head. "Why do you keep doing this?" Marcel asked and I chuckled sadly. "Doing what?" I asked and he sat down on the floor next to me. "Emma you two always make each other angry. Why didn't you tell him that Fabian needs help? I'm sure he would have understood." Marcel said and I shrugged my shoulders. I put my chin on my knees, but stood up after a while. "I've never meant to hurt him." I said and walked away. Walked far away from Marcel, from those problems. I walked to the bar. Yeah, alcohol is something I need.
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"Vodka." I told the waiter and he nodded. I've already had like 7 of it? I don't know. I can't remember. All I can remember is coming into this bar. "Here you are." the guy said and placed the vodka in front of me. I drank it, but didn't even make a face because I can't kind of feel the way it tastes. Maybe I should go home. "E-ex-excuse me?" I asked and the waiter look at me. "How can I help you?" he asked and I chuckled. "There is watch there." I said and pointed on the wall. He looked there and gave me a confused look. "I can't see clearly sooooo....what's t-the time?" I asked and he raised his eyebrows. "9 pm." he said and I gulped. I've already been away for like 3 hours? How greeeeat! "You should probably go home." he said and I held up my glass.
"One more and then I'm leaving." I said and he sighed. I drank the last vodka of mine and payed. "Thanks." I said and he nodded. "Shall I call you a taxi?" he asked and pointed on my unsure way of walking. "Nah. I'll make it home." I said and left.
I've been walking for half an hour, but I don't know where I'm at. I just... everything is dark and I can't see anything. I started crying and my drunk mind and hands dialed Marco's number. He answered, but said nothing. "Marco? I don't know where I'm at." I sobbed. Like the hell, where am I?! "Wh-what? Emma are you drunk?" he asked and I sobbed. "I don't know. I can't see clearly. And I've already lost my way." I said and heard him sigh. "I'll call Marcel so we can drive you home." he said and I sat on the walking path. "How can you drive me home when I don't know where I am at?" I asked and looked around. "Emma look around please. What can you see?" he asked and I shrugged. "There's something... like shop? And...there's your billboard." I said and went closer. I touched Marco's face and giggled. "You're so handsome." I mumbled and sobbed. Have I lost him? "Okay. Stay there. Don't move. We'll be right there." he said and hung up. I feel strange. I'm crying and laughing at the same time. Oh, those are probably my drunk emotions.
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