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Chapter 93: Late Night Conversations

Cameron's POV

I sighed as I unlocked the front door of my apartment. I had just finished a three hour photo shoot for Calvin Klein and I was beyond exhausted. All I wanted to do was go to sleep and maybe cuddle with Nash.

As I opened the door, I walked into the dark apartment. I sighed. I was hoping that Nash was back from his table read by now. I smiled to myself. He had done so well for himself. Especially considering where he had come from. I couldn't help but feel responsible for that.

I shut the door behind me and flipped on the light switch. I put my keys, wallet and phone down on the kitchen counter and went straight for my bedroom, well , our bedroom.

I opened the door to reveal Nash laying on the bed on his phone.

"I didn't know you were back." I said softly while stripping off my t-shirt and pants.

Nash looked up and smiled. "I got back a bit early."

I laid down next to him. "How'd the reading go?" I asked while snuggling up close to him. He wrapped his arm around my waist and kissed my forehead.

"It went really well. I cant wait to start shooting. It's always been a dream of mine to an actor and now it's coming true all thanks to you." Nash said with a smile.

I couldn't help but blush at his statement.

"You're just a natural that's all." I said. Nash snickered.

"You feeling better now?" he asked.

"I always feel better when I'm with you." I said softly.

Nash brought my face up to his and softly kissed me. He pulled away before I could kiss back. "You know, I feel like we kind of did the whole relationship thing in reverse." He stated.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Well, we went through all the drama and the fighting. That usually happens once you're in a relationship for a while you know? Plus we had sex before we were together together." Nash stated.

"Would you have preferred it any other way?" I asked.

Nash shrugged. "I'm happy where I am now. With you. But if I could go back, I'd try to do things right from the start. Tell you how I feel, ask you out and take you on dates and everything." Nash said.

"We can still do that now."

"Yeah but try to avoid the whole me beating you half to death and stuff." Nash said while tensing up.

"I've told you a million times Nash, I forgive you."

"Yeah but that doesn't make it any better. I still hurt you. I want to go back in time and beat myself up for ever laying a hand on you Cameron."

I sighed. I looked up at him and leaned in. I connected our lips. He moved his lips slowly against mine for a while till I pulled apart. "Nash. I forgive you. Now let's not talk about that okay." I said while intertwining our hands.

Nash smirked. "You know something Cam..." Nash said softly and seductively. Shivers ran through my entire body.

"We haven't had sex in almost seven months." He continued.

I thought for a second. Had it been that long? We hadn't had sex since I left, and that was almost six months and then after Claytons death I couldn't bring myself too.

"hmmm." I said softly.

"How ever did you control yourself?" I asked.

Nash shrugged. "Your instagram helped."

I playfully slapped his arm. He leaned in closer and started kissing my neck. I let out a soft yelp as he sucked my sweet spot.

"Nash..." I said softly. He muffled an answer but I didn't catch it.

"Nash." I said again causing him to look up at me.

"As much as I want to, I can't. Not yet." I said while looking down. I kind of wanted to make him wait for it. Maybe on a special occasion. I was planning a date for next week. I figured that would be the perfect time.

Nash sighed and laid back.

"I keep disappointing you and-"Nash cut me off by lifting my head up.

"You never disappoint me Cameron. And I understand why you wouldn't want to have sex. I completely respect that. "

I smiled and kissed him. "I love you so much you know that?"

He tightened his grip around me. "I love you too, and I'm never letting you go. Not again." He said while kissing my cheek.

"You know ive been thinking." I said softly.

"About?" he asked softly while running his hand through my hair.

"I want to marry you Nash. And i know you said that these were kind of like promise rings or whatever but I want them to be engagement rings. I want to be able to walk down that aisle to you. I want to be able to read my vows to you in front of everyone. I want everyone to be there." I said softly.

Nash looked at me and smiled. "If that's what you want, then we'll call a wedding planner."

I shook my head. "Not yet. You ruined my whole proposal thing. So stand up." I said while getting up. Nash looked at me with a confused look.

"Nash Grier stand up right now so I can propose to you." I said while crossing my arms. Nash chuckled and got up.

I took a deep breath and kneeled on one knee in front of him.

"Hamilton, will you marry me?" I asked while holding his hand.

"Hmmm I'll have to think about it..." he said slyly.

I stood up and crossed my arms. He chuckled. "Of course I'll marry you Cameron. It's always a yes with you." He said while hugging me and spinning me around.

"We should tell the guys." I said softly.

Nash shook his head. "Let it be a surprise for when we go visit for your mom's birthday. That way we can tell your mom and your sister too." He said. I just looked at him and pulled his head towards mine and kissed him.

My heart fluttered. Why did he have to be so goddamned perfect?

"You know when I said I wasn't ready to have sex?" I asked. Nash raised an eyebrow. "Yeah?"

"I lied." I stated as I pushed him down on the bed.

Nash looked at me oddly. "Why would you lie?"

"Because I wanted to make you wait for it, but then I realized, I can't resist you anymore."

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QOTD: Do you watch Anime? If so what's your favorite?

-Gravitation and Love Stage because I love me some yaoi. Yaoi is basically slash or boyxboy incase ya didn't know!