LGBTQIAP+ Milestones: Book 4

Accepting the Truth

Anonymous

Reader caution is advised if you are sensitive to mention of self-harm or suicidal themes.

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Where I stand now, as who I am, didn't come easy, or even the way I would've expected such a turning point in my life. It hit hard, really hard, and it took a while to accept it. Eventually, I accepted it, and it felt so good to realize the truth. I never thought it would be this way, but without any more delay, let's view my story.

I'll start by explaining my backstory so you can see where I'm coming from. As of now (March 2018), I am 15 years old and on the final stretch of my 9th grade freshman year. I live in the USA in the eastern time zone, in a somewhat moderate city. I have a mom and dad who are a bit over 40, one brother who is 13, a 7 year old dog, and some fish. My family tree is huge, but we don't need to go there just yet. I have quite a few friends who get on my nerves sometimes, but no one really closer than her. More on that later. Pretty average life we have here, huh?

Not in one way do I see myself as average, even with the description above. Here comes the quirky parts. I am a huge fantasy lover, especially of magic and mythical creatures, like dragons (my favorite creature to ever exist). I am made fun of for this a lot, occasionally called the "Dragon Mother" or "Dragon Mama" by my friends, who think I own them...awkward. Anyways, I also daydream a lot, play video games, write stories on Wattpad (hehe), and explore what I can of the world. I've been bullied for these hobbies and my personality a lot, and for some time, I was depressed and suicidal at a few points. This was during my middle school (7-8 grade) years. I advise you skip the next few parts if you are sensitive in this area. I tried to cut myself twice, and at one point had a knife at my throat, but I was stopped...by her. Again, she will be discussed later. Now, the part you've all been waiting for. My biggest quirk that you're probably dying to know after all of this introduction I've given you.

I am bisexual.

I guess now is the time to reveal who she is. For the record, I am a female, so you get the idea. For her safety, I will refer to her name as Avery, the name she wants to give to her child. I met Avery in the weirdest, possibly most awkward way. It was in a Minecraft server. I'll give you a few moments to laugh, it's okay to do so. I still laugh when I think of this moment sometimes.Ready for me to explain more on meeting Avery? Well, ready or not, here I go.

So on this Minecraft server, we met each other through a role play. As I always did, I saw every player as a friend to me, despite the dangers internet players could pose. The only thing they would ever know about me was my username, my disguised skin, and some aspects of my personality. I role played with Avery a few times, not realizing we were growing closer. Then, one day, she approached me. She said something like, "I don't know, I just want to get to know you better." Something along those lines, since I have bad memory, and this happened 3 or 4 years ago. I knew of dangers of online predators, after an experience with a boy who I trusted then forced to move on from, but with her, I felt like I should leave it to fate to decide. With that, we started to talk more and learn about each other, step by step.Soon enough, we discovered we had similar interests, similar personalities, and alike backstories. Again, for her safety, I won't reveal anything about her that I learned. We just had so much more in common than I ever predicted. As a reminder, at this time, I did not know I was bisexual, nor did I have any interest in her. We lived far apart, but in the eastern time zone of the USA. The event that brought us closer together was pretty...odd, I should say.

Going back to my family, who didn't like me for who I was, were the ones to spark most of this. Not to be rude to them, but I was treated like trash. They left me to learn to make my own meals, find a way to get money, and learn everything that I should've known earlier but didn't. My mom's fear, however, was losing me or my brother to kidnapping. She tracked my phone and its activities, and still does to this day. My dad worked all the time, so he usually left the parenting care to my mom. If she got an alert of me texting a new person, she would question me about it. She started getting suspicious with the boy from earlier (just a friend), and forced me to cut ties with him. However, when she discovered Avery, she just said to watch it, like she knew something I didn't. She monitored what I said, on my computer, phone, or whatever device I got ahold of that she could inspect. Anyways, she let it off easy with Avery at first, but that wasn't going to always be the case.