LGBTQIAP+ Milestones: Book 4

The Queer is Here

By Silvester

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I recently told a friend of mine that I'm genderqueer. She shrugged it off, and kind of ignored me. I felt disheartened, and I hated speaking to her, and pretty much to any of my friends. I haven't spoken to my crush about it, but I really want to. I have a crush on a girl who I've known for a little while now. She's super nice, and she has helped me through a lot of stuff. But, there are 3(ish) reasons I haven't told her I like her. 1. She's moving. 2. I come from a very homophobic and religious family. (They still know me as a girl. I have not come out to them.) 3. I have been having a lot of panic attacks, and my anxiety is getting worse, and I just don't want to wait for her reply, or face her after telling her. I really do want to tell her though.

I have a friend who helps me, and I help her, and we like to message each other back and forth. We like to speak to each other in french occasionally. She is like the rain. Anyways, she has gotten me to decide to tell this girl that I like her, this week. I don't know if I will or not... It definitely won't be in english. I will make her translate it. But, I really do hope that I can make this work out... She is one of the few things that I look forward to each day.

I hope you guys are braver than me. Don't be afraid to speak up.

*Sylvester