Crucible

135 13 1

by lgbtq

by lgbtq

By ForeverandMagic

Most people who know me consider me a bright kid who just so happens to be a little weird. But, of course, they shrug it off because almost every nerd in my town acts the same way. Awkward, strange, and a bit curious.

So, I recently have had a lot of trials that have brought up some feelings that I have tried to suppress for a while now. These mainly are about me being a closeted trans guy. First was an application. You see, I was accepted to do this academic program that is a great opportunity for someone who doesn't have that much money. Scholarships are abundant, and I wasn't going to let this chance slip from my fingers. So, my friends and I were accepted, and we went to a meeting where we had to sign up. No biggie except parents were present.

One question was obvious. Gender. Since I am closeted, I would have chosen female, but I did tell my parents before. Dad was cool, but my mom didn't believe me. Naturally, I hesitated before answering the question, but my mom said that I was 'female' three times before I clicked on it.

I muttered under my breath, but she said something that caught me off guard. ""Think about where we live, (insert Fleetwood Mac song name). If you're right, the teachers here might...""

And honestly, as much as I hate to admit it, she is right. Both the professor's in the program and the teachers at my highschool have proven to have mixed reactions towards LGBTQ kids. I can't even trust some guidance counselors. I don't live in a good area for LGBT, and my mom knows this all too well.

Another trial came from a friend. It happened the day after what I just described, and my friends and I went to the our school's production of The Crucible. We were sitting in the seats when this familiar boy jumped up to see what I assumed to be his girlfriend. They were in front of us, and it was quite cute. That was when my friend, who I came out to, said, ""That used to be a girl..""

Now, my other friend heard this and went tense. He is also like me, and we didn't say a word. I really wanted to say something, but I didn't. After the long play, I made sure to talk to Nico about what our friend said, but instead, I just said that if he ever wanted to talk about something, he could just call.

Plus, I have a bit of a crush on him, so it wouldn't hurt for him to call.

So, being the guy I am, I have decided to ask the school to start a GSA. It probably won't go through, but hopefully I can put up flyers to get the attention of students.

But, I know this will cause some problems. People will start asking questions, and I know that the truth will come out. Should I do this, or should I just keep my mouth shut? If I do this, I wouldn't be surprised if the school contacted my parents, and I would have to come out again. However, if it goes according to plan, I could help others and myself in my area. What to do?

Ugh.